Getting My Answers

All Of My Emotions

I caught him cheating. I mean he wasn't inside of her, but his shirt was off and she was pinned to his desk. Her black, sleek locks draping over the deep colored wood. My eyes grew wide and my mouth dropped.
"You promised me.." was all I could say before I ran. Tears stung my eyes and rejection pulled at my heart. This is why I didn't want to get close to anyone.
"Roza, it's not what it looks like!" I heard his voice calling after me. Rage filled me then, making me see red. My fist connected with the brick wall of the building and it wasn't until I felt a few pops and the severe throbbing, that I knew my hand was either severely jammed or broken.
"Babe stop!" Dimitri grabbed my hand and held it to his chest. I couldn't look him in the eye and then the tears came faster. He lead me to his office and I noticed it was clear.

At this point I don't even care who she was. I was angry that he would even do that to me.
"Why?" Was all I could get out between sobs.  He took my chin in his hand and lifted my wet eyes to meet his dry ones.

"She was trying to get in your place. She wanted to seduce me and I refused. She ripped my shirt open and then unbuttoned her shirt. I pinned her to the desk to get her to stop taking her clothes off and then you walked in. I could never cheat on you. The thought of doing so makes me sick to my stomach. You're the only one I want." 

I didn't know what took me over in that moment but I wrapped my arms around his neck and hugged him dearly. I never wanted to lose him. In any way.

"Don't do that to me again.  That feeling is unbearable. The rejection. The hurt. It's a silent killer." I laid my head on his shoulder.  His arms wrapped around me and pulled me close to his chest. His cologne filled my nose and his muscles twitched under my touch. This man was really mine.
"Are you hungry, Love?" His eyes met mine.
"Ravenous." I smiled slightly. He pressed his lips to mine gently and then  wound his fingers in my hair, deepening the kiss.
"That comes later." He smiled. He helped me to my feet and grabbed his spare shirt from his desk. It was a deep red color and looked silky to the touch. I was practically undressing him with my eyes.
I looked my hand over and the bruising was starting.
"This is going to look great." I said never leaving my eyes from my now bruising skin. It was stupid to hit the wall. He walked  over and kissed my tender flesh. It would go away in a few days. I kissed his chest, as he didn't get the buttons fastened.

What started as me seeing him 'cheating' was now turning into something a little more PG. I wanted him.
"Take me home." I said calmly, even though I wanted to take him here now.
"As you wish." He smiled sexily. That wasn't helping.
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On the drive home his hand rested on my thigh, not in a sexual way, but in a protective way. It was these sweet, caring moments that I loved.  We pulled onto the long gravel driveway and only the moonlight shown through the bare trees. My anticipation was rising as was my need for him. He put the car in park and then came around to my door. He opened it for me and helped me out into the brisk air. We silently entered the house and he locked the door. I walked to the bedroom to change into something more comfortable. I felt him standing behind me. His body pressed to mine. His fingers moved my hair as he kissed down my neck and to my shoulder.
"Dimitri." I breathed, tilting my head back.
"Let me prove my love to you, Roza. Let me show you." He whispered against my skin. 

All I did was nod and he took over my body. His hands slid the jacket down my arms and he picked me up and laid me on the bed. He discarded my shoes and worked on my jeans. After he had me down to my bra and panties, I stood up.  I slowly raised my hands to his shirt and unbuttoned the little black circles. His chest was then exposed to me and everything I wanted to do to it.  I closed my eyes and kissed him over and over.  A low growl rumbled  through his chest.