Lovely Bully (A JB FanFic)

Chapter 51: Unbelievable or Believable?

"Hey what are you-"
I was suddenly attacked into a strong hug.
I sighed.
It was only Justin.
"Alexandra, baby, I'm really really sorry, I love you so much and I didn't mean anything I said I swear. I was upset and when I'm upset I say things I don't mean. I love you a lot and I hate the silent treatment and I hate being ignored, especially by you. I'm really sorry. Ill make it up to you I swear just please forgive me."
He said it too fast not taking any breaths in between any of the words he just rushed out, but I still seemed to understand them.
I rubbed his back comfortingly.
"Shh, Justin I know. I know." I sighed.
"Justin, you need to understand that when you say something... you can't expect to say sorry and be forgiven sometimes."
He tensed up as he held me tighter. As if he were afraid to let me go.
"I know. I'm really sorry. I promise I won't do it again. But please baby say you forgive me." he whimpered.
I sighed biting my lip.
"I forgive you Justin." he then let go and kissed me holding my face gently.
He finally pulled back catching his breath.
"I've been waiting to do that all day." He whispered.
"Justin. I've never seen you act like this before.. are you okay?" I asked concerned.
He bit his lip and sat on the couch looking at the floor as he shook his leg nervously.
"Justin...."
I sat next to him kissing his cheek.
"Sometimes I just get sad and depressed when the people I love leave me or ignore me for too long."
I nodded.
"Why didn't you tell me, depression is serious Justin."
he bit his lip.
"I didn't want you to worry."
I held him into a hug and kissed him.
I leaned on his chest as he wrapped his arm around me.
"Justin, I'll always worry about you. But that doesn't mean you should keep things from me."
He nodded
He kissed my forehead.
"I'm really sorry." he mumbled.
I nodded
"It's okay." I kissed his chest.
He gave me a weak smile.

•JUSTIN'S POV•
As I cuddled with Alexandra the next few minutes I couldn't help but finally feel relaxed by her comforting.
Depression started to become a serious thing in my life when my father left. He never called me or visited me. I was lead into the state of depression and lashed out I guess making my bipolar/anger issues serious...but I guess I'm ok now....
"Hey Uhm Alexandra."
"Yes Justin?"
I bit my lip.
"Are you still up for that whole dinner with my parents." I held my breath nervously awaiting for her answer.
I really didn't want her to come. I didn't want her to see the demon known as my father.
"Sure. Sounds great." she smiled at me pecking my lips.
She grabbed her leather jacket and lifted me off the couch by grabbing her hand as she slid her phone in her pocket and grabbed her car keys.
I groaned.
Shit she's really meeting my dad.
She gave me a confusing look but shook it off.
We walked out and got into her car as I locked the door behind us.She turned on the radio and the song "Let me Love you." came on.
I smiled.
I really like this song.
I lowly singed the lyrics tapping to the beat of the song on the deck of the car.
"And let me love you, and I will love you until you love-"
"You sing nice."
I widened my eyes.
"I didn't know you were listening." I shrugged.
"Well, I was and you sing really good.You should write songs and stuff. I mean I already know you probably play some instruments."
I looked at her and shrugged again.
"I guess."
I inwardly rolled my eyes.
Show her some songs stupid.
My inner voice reminded.

"Here." Alexandra looked over at me and smiled.
We got out of the car as she locked the doors. I grabbed her hand as she trailed behind me. I unlocked my house door stepping inside with Alexandra still behind me.
"You're late."
I jumped, startled hearing my father's booming voice.
I looked over at the clock
5:15
I rolled my eyes.
"I went to go get Alexandra, remember your little dinner plans?" I growled, securing my arm around Alexandra's waist.

•ALEXANDRA'S POV•
As Justin's grip got tighter I couldn't help but notice how strange the relationship between Justin Andean I'm guessing was his Father was.
"Watch your tone Justin." his father snapped.
When I looked at Justin he tensed up letting go of me and taking a step back looking down almost as if he were embarrassed.
He stared down at his son for a few more seconds before turning to me, Giving me a creepy grin.
Sticking his hand out he greeted me.
"Hi I'm Jeremy, Justin's Father."
I looked over at Justin who looked as if he were about to say something but immediately shut his mouth.
That was very unusual of him.
This feeling, and the tension in the room was actually very unusual too.
I gave him a fake smile, shaking his firm hand held out in from of him.
"Alexandra, nice too meet you."
"Come, dinners almost ready."
I nodded as Justin pushed past me furrowing his eyebrows and looking around the living then walking into the Kitchen as I followed behind he seemed to be searching for something.
I sat down as did Jeremy.
He have Justin a questioning look.
"Are you going to join us Justin?"
"Where's mom?"
Jeremy sighed.
"She had to go out on a business trip she'll be back in 3 days."
"What do you mean-"
"Are you going to join us?" Jeremy stated, coming out as more of a demand more than a question.
Justin quickly sat down in front of me.
"I hope you like spaghetti and meatballs!" Jeremy exclaimed.
I chuckled.
"Love it, actually."
He then gave me another creepy grin as he looked over at Justin who was stabbing at his food, seeming bothered by something.
There was an awkward silence that lifted.
I looked around awkwardly as Justin seemed to not be enjoying this at all while Jeremy seemed so.... so tranquil.
Suddenly he cleared his throat.
"So, when did you two meet?"
Justin tensed up, staring at me with a sort of help me look?
I shrugged it off.
"We'll me and Justin always knew each other since elementary school..."
I trailed off, thinking of all the bullying he's done to me, tearing up but quickly breathing in a breath.
Amazing how things change so quickly. I smiled and Justin finally finished.
"Then we just sort of clicked after this project we did." Justin kept his stare on me, but this time it was a kind stare and we smiled at each other for a few minutes before Justin returned back to his food stabbing. I sighed.
"That's good. I remember when Justin used to love music and sneakers rather than girls."
I bit my lip.
Was that an insult, or a good memory?Either way I was confused and hurt.
"That was a long time ago, no need to bring up the past." Justin scoffed.
Jeremy shrugged.
"I'm just remembering when you were a good boy, you know, the boy who actually cared about school."
Justin stabbed his fork on the plate making a loud smashing sound.
"I said it was a long time ago." Justin firmly repeated.
Jeremy crossed his arms staring at Justin.
"I know. But sometimes son you can't forget the past."
I bit my lip, looking down at my half eaten food.
"We'll I've tried and your right you can't forget the past. So that's why I can't stand you being here, because you think that I'll just forget what you did to this family."
That's when Jeremy stood up glaring at Justin.
Justin never kept his eye off of his 'father'.
"Alexandra I think you should leave."
I furrowed my eyebrows.
"Justin it's -"
"Now." was all he said, finishing his sentence.
I got up sighing.
Unbelievable.
"Bye Justin."
He said nothing but keep a glare on his father his fists clenched and his jaw locked.Standing in my way he stood there for a few minutes before slowly moving out of my way. Jeremy said a goodbye before I headed out the door.
"Call me." was all I said referring to Justin before I closed his house door.
As I got in my car starting it up, it rained.
Hearing the pitter patter go onto the window shield and the light swish swash of the window wipers got me thinking as I leaned my arm up against the window as my head laid on my fist steering with only one hand.
What was that all about?

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