People grow apart, people grow closer, but wherever we go, we always take a little of each other everywhere. We all take different paths and go different ways. Sometimes we might even get lost down the road, but sometimes getting lost means you'll f...
"So what's the big plan?" Scooter asked as we pulled up to the airport.
"I don't know Scooter." I said scratching my head.
"What do you mean you don't know?" He asked as if I was crazy. "You have been crazy for this girl for the longest time. And now that you can be with her, you are rethinking it?"
"You don't get it. Austin and I were great buds. And I ruined our friendship because I fell in love with Vanessa. But when we were talking back at the hotel.... we connected. He understood me. It was like old times. No fighting. No competitiveness." I smiled reminiscing our conversation. "And I missed that with him." I said as I opened the car door to walk up the stairs for my private jet.
Scooter didn't say anything else. He just followed me inside the jet.
"I'm gonna rest for a little bit. This day has been full of a lot of different emotions and I just need to rest my mind." I said making my way over to the long couch.
However, before I could jump of the couch to rest, I heard the bathroom door slide and Vanessa walked out.
"JEEZ VANESSA! You scared the hell out of me." I said jumping from her surprised appearance.
"I'm sorry." She giggled. "I didn't mean to." She apologized.
"What are you doing here?" I asked confused.
"I'm here so we can fly back to California." She smiled. "Together."
"Vanessa... I–I" I sighed—remembering the offer I gave her.
"I'm gonna give you guys some privacy and wait for Kenny outside." Scooter suddenly spoke up behind me and quickly exited the scene.
"No." She said firmly and I watch as her smile faded away. "You don't get to tell me you love me and than change your mind." She demand.
"I–I am j–ju–st. Ugh." I growled because I couldn't gather my thoughts together. "I am just trying to figure out if this is really what I want." I sighed.
"What do you mean? Just yesterday you were telling me that you love me and now you're not sure? What is going on? What happened?" She said frustrated.
"What happened is that the guilt is killing me." I raised my voice. "I can't explain it but I have this feeling of guilt towards Austin." I sighed again.
"Where is this coming from?" She asked softly.
"You don't get it." I shook my head.
"What is it that I don't get, Justin?!" She demanded and I could tell she was getting frustrated.
"YOU DO NOT KNOW WHAT IT IS LIKE TO LOVE YOU!" I yelled, but immediately regretted it afterwards. "Loving you is like a drug." I said calmer. "It's wanting you when I know I shouldn't. It's wishing to have you when I know one of my greatest friends is completely in love with you. It's being near you and losing all control of my sense. Its feeling like the most miserable man when I see you in someone else's arms. It's hard to love you, because loving you means someone will get hurt." I told her and suddenly her face softened.
"Don't you think I'm aware of that?" She asked softly. "Loving me is complicated. I know that. I want to love, but I don't. I put others before me and apparently it makes me lovable. I know that. I'm a mess. I know. Loving me is this never ending cycle of me not wanting to choose between you and Justin." She heaved a sigh. "I may not know what it really feels like to love me, but you have no idea what it feels to be tugged at from both you and Austin. Tugging for me to make a choice. But I knew that choosing would hurt the other. You have no idea what it feels like to know I can't have both of you. You out of everyone have the least idea because you are the one that made me pick. And now that I've picked–you don't want to be pick?" She said as if it made no sense.
"Of course I want to be picked." I said. "But the guilt of him kills me. I know what it's like to want you and see you with someone else." I said reminiscing all the time I saw her happy with Austin.
"I wanted it to be Austin. I wanted it to be Austin because you made me choose. But when I made the decision for it to be Austin, all I could think of is you. I knew deep down that choosing Austin would changed our friendship. And the smallest chance of our friendship changing scared the hell out of me. Because I don't want a life where I don't have you by my side. That's when I realized that we could be both. Best friends and lovers." She said smiling at me and I couldn't help it but a smile started to grow on my face. "I may not be in love, but I am more than willing to fall if you are there to catch me." She smiled.
I couldn't bring myself to say anything. I had dreamed of the moment Vanessa would say this, but I couldn't say anything. So I just stood there and smiled like an idiot.
"I want you, Justin. I pick you." She said taking a step closer to me. "So please tell me that you also pick me." She said taking another step.
"I love you. You know that. I have guilt. You know that. I'm a man with a hell of issues. You know that. Do you still want me?" I chuckled.
Before anything else could happen she set her hand of the back of my head and pushed me towards her. Then without a second to think she crashed her lips onto mine.
Bliss.
That's what I felt. Her lips tasted like cherry chapstick and they felt so soft. Her lips fit perfectly between mine and I never wanted them to move. It's was as if all the bad in this world had gone away and only true happiness was all I carried. Kissing Vanessa was like jumping into a pool of healthy water and coming out cured of whatever desease you had.
Kissing Vanessa was blissful.
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She slowly pulled away, letting her lips linger on my until she finally backed her head up.
"Love is a very dangerous game. I played it once and I lost miserably. So I told myself that I would never play it again. But I am more than willingly to play it with you." She suddenly sounded afraid. "This is it, Justin." She said taking hold of my hand and placing it over her heart. "I'm giving you the last bit of trust I have in love. So please don't break it, because if you do–I might never love again." She said as she gave my hand a squeeze.
I slowly moved closer to her and placed a soft kiss on her forehead. "I love you, Vanessa." I said before pulling her in for a hug.
"I hope someday I can return those words to you." She said wrapping her arms around my torso.
"I'm will to play the waiting game." I smiled.
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Yay! It finally happened! I know a lot of you have been waiting for this, so I thought it was enough waiting. Enjoy! I can't wait for you to see what Justin and Vanessa have in store! Thank you guys for sticking around! Love you all!
