Why me? J.A. Fanfic (ON HOLD)

Chapter: 4

Alex's POV
Jack and I walk outside to my car and drive to his house.

when we arrive at his house i get out and start to grab stuff from the car, but jack stops me and grabs my bags. i laugh at him and try to get something but he walks away "you aren't carrying any of them alex" i just nod and walk up to the door with him.

He opens it and steps inside. his house was about the size of mine but a little bit bigger. he leads me upstairs to his room.

his room has a couple guitars and a keyboard in the corner. i got excited because i learned how to play guitar and piano but i was never allowed to buy any because my mom said i would never be good, but i thought i wasn't bad.

i walked over to them and i felt a hand go around my waist. i turn around to see jack "can you play" i nod and he sits down. "come here" i sit down beside him and i start to play So Cold by Ben Cocks. i start to sing.

i stopped to see jack with tears in his eyes. i hug him "jack why are you crying?" he puts his head down. i pick up his chin so i could look in his eyes "jack?" he smashes his lips onto mine.
i didn't kiss back for a couple seconds but then i do.

we stay kissing for a minute and he releases

Jacks POV.

i was listening to her sing...

"you caused my heart to bleed

you still owe me a reason

because i can't figure out why"

i sat there and thought of all the horrible things i did.

all those scars are my fault. why did i ever do this. IM SUCH A FUCKING IDIOT

i feel tears but i don't care.

why would i hurt her...

oh maybe because i was jealous that's so fucking stupid.

i'm stupid

i hate myself

why

just why.

she stops singing "jack why are you crying" i look down and she lifts my chin so i'm looking into her eyes. this is what i feel in love with. "jack?" i admire the rest of her

the way she laughs

her hair

her beautiful eyes

her personality

the way she dresses

her everything.

i smash my lips on to hers. she doesn't kiss back at first but then she does.

i let go and she is smiling and i am too

"i love you, alex, i'm sorry" i pause "i'm sorry,  i'm such a fucking idiot" she stops smiling

"jack stop you aren't an idi-." i cut her off

"alex, yes i am, i did things to you that i would never forgive myself for doing, i let you go through this pain and i never stopped"

"j-jack, why me?" (title of the book i think soooooo)

"because i was jealous"

"why"

A/N

w.c. 499

welp that's a cliff hanger and sorry i'm not following the schedule i suck at this stuff so i'm gonna post when i can so don't be mad at me but i hoped you enjoy this chapter.

bye loves💙