My hate for you (Eruri)

A Hate That Only Grows..........

LEVI POV

I wake up and it's like 5 am. I have never been able to sleep for long periods at time. I'm lucky if I get 4 hours of sleep without waking up two times. I hear my phone go off and I go to check it.

Commander.Erwin: hey faggot, you ready for your junior year, cause I am gonna make it hell
Captain.Levi: Fuck off

I turn my phone off and hop in the shower. I get out and get changed into some black jeans, white T-shirt and black leather jacket. I fix my hair and walk downstairs. Mikasa is already downstairs waiting for me to make her breakfast. I walk into the kitchen and make us some pancakes. We eat and then I do the dishes. "are you worried about going back to school?", she asks. I nod. "if anyone even tries to hurt you I will kill them", she says. "you don't have to waist your time protecting me, I appreciate it but you have your own friends", I say. "why don't you come and hang out with my friends, they are in the same year as us and they are both guys so maybe it would be easier to get along with them than my past friends", she says. "that would be nice except they probably heard all the rumours about me and would just be more people to make fun of me", I say blankly. "they heard them but they don't believe them. They were actually bugging me a lot last year to bring you into our little group. Also arming is gay as well and eren is bisexual, so maybe you could get a boyfriend out of it", she says. "OK I'll hang out with you and your friends", I say. "good, I just don't want to see you alone for another year", she says rubbing me back. "thanks mikasa", I say. "we should head to school, go grab your bag", she says. I nod and walk upstairs and grab my bag. I walk back down and me and mikasa head out. We walk for a little bit before she spots her friends. "Armin! Eren!", she shouts while motioning for them to come over. They walk over and stand on either side of us. "so mikasa, who is this?, you got a boyfriend?", Eren asks. "no this is my brother, levi", she says. "hi", I say. "I'm armin!", the blonde boy says. "I'm eren", the Burnet says. "nice to meet you both", I say. We walk and talk until we reach the school. I am taking some classes that are for a higher grade because I did so well in them, Especially art. I have a double period of art right now so I walk up to the third floor and wait and line up outside the classroom. I am just checking Neko Atsume when I hear, "oh look, of course the neddy faggot would get put in a seniors class". It's erwin he gives me so much pain but I have feelings for him so I can't bring myself to fight back and hurt him. I give him a glare and go back to playing my game. I hear the teacher walk out into the hall to greet us. "right students, I already have a seating plan arranged so I will hand you a piece of paper with a number on it, the desks also have numbers on them, so what ever number you get, that is the desk you sit at", she explains. She hands me the number 21. It's the far back window seat. I walk in and sit down. I look out the window for a couple of moments until I hear a sigh, I look to see erwin putting his bag on the back of his chair and sitting down. The teacher walks in and says, "right today you can draw what ever you want, I want to see what level of art you're at". She hands out a piece of paper to everyone. I decide to draw me in my bunny hoodie

(DRAWING IS NOT MINE FULL CREDIT TO THE ARTIST)

I finish 10 minutes before break. I glance over at erwin to see that he is failing to draw a flower. "when you finish, hand your work into me", the teacher says. I get up and walk to the front of the class and hand her the paper with the drawing on it. I walk back and sit down. I spent the rest of the time staring out of the window thinking about stuff. I hear the bell ring and I grab my bag and walk out. I walk to my locker and grab my math textbook for after break. I shut my locker and try to walk away but I get pinned to the wall and punched in the face. I look to see erwin. He starts kneeing my stomach he does it so hard that I have a shortage of breath. He drops me to the floor and everything goes black, all I remember hearing before blacking out was mikasa yelling at erwin. I woke up and saw that I was in the nurses office. I fully open my eyes to see mikasa sitting in a chair next to the bed. I look at her. "good, you're awake", she says hugging me. "don't worry I gave him a good beating as you can see", she said motioning to an unconscious erwin two beds down. "me and him both have a detention after school but it was worth it, I am not letting you out of my sight again", she says. I nod and sit up. The nurse comes over and hands me pain killers and a glass of water. I take them and she says, "mikasa, I think you should take him home, I will let the head teacher know that you have to look after him and that's why you aren't at school or your detention, I'll have him reschedule it". She nods and helps me up. We walk out of the school and head home. "you should go and rest, I will put a pizza in the oven for dinner and tell you when it's done", she says. I nod and walk upstairs and lay on my bed. I get a text and I check it

Commander.Erwin: why don't you do everyone a favour and kill yourself, no one loves you anyway and no one ever will, you will die alone

Time skip

After dinner mikasa went on a date with this girl called Annie, so I'm by myself just now. Would it be better if I just killed myself? I have very few people who give a damn about me. If I did kill myself then mikasa would have no family left. I am honestly terrified of death. I walk into the bathroom and see my pocket knife on the counter. I grab it and cut in numerous places on my wrists. I clean the wounds and bandage them. I clean up the blood that is on the counter and clean the knife. I take the knife back to my room and put it in my school bag. I hop into bed and fall asleep.