Arrangement (JG)

9

Jennie's POV —a month later—
"Jennie. Just calm down alright?" Jack says
"Calm down? Seriously? The venue got cancelled Jack. The place where we are having the wedding? Yea! I think it's super important and I shouldn't calm down!" I exclaim
"Your gonna stress your self out." He says
"I'm already stressed out Jack." I say leaning against the counter
"What the hell are we gonna do? The most important part of our wedding just got ripped out from under us." I say rubbing my face
"We'll find another place. It'll be fine." He says
"In three months Jack? We are gonna find a place to get married in three months when you usually have to book months in advance. We were lucky to get that venue." I say and he sighs
"You don't even care for god sakes." I say pushing myself off the counter and walking away
"I care Jennie, but your blowing this out of proportion." He says following me
"If anything I should be reacting more dramatically." I say
"When are you not dramatic?" Jack asks.
"When things go as planned." I say
"So when you get your way?" He asks following after me upstairs.
"No Jack. Can we just not argue?" I ask as I start to fold some laundry.
"Can you calm down?" He asks sitting on the edge of the bed near me
"This whole thing. Us getting married. Is a mad show. It's absolutely stupid." I say
"We've came this far Jennie." He states
"And now we are just going backwards." I say and he sighs
"What's gotten into you?" He asks
"I don't wanna get married Jack." I say looking at him
"And you think I do?" He asks
"No. I don't cuz you go out every other night and hook up with some chick, or make out with some chick. I don't think you wanna get married at all." I say
"Your gonna end up getting one of these girls pregnant and I'm gonna look like a fool for not calling things off with you." I say
"You nag so much." He says rubbing his face and I roll my eyes
"I go out cuz I need a break from your constant complaining." He says
"So you need a break every other day?" I ask
"Yes! Have you heard yourself talk Jennie? Once you start you don't stop and it's fucking annoying. No matter what we are doing, you turn it into an argument." He says
"Really? Because I'm pretty sure you stared this one." I say
"Cuz you were being a drama queen!" He exclaims
"Ok. Then I'm done. I'll pack a bag and go to my moms or something." I say and then go back to folding the laundry.
"Please do, my lord." He says getting up and walk out of the room. He pulls the door with him so it slams shut and i jump a little. I sigh and tilt my head back to refrain from crying. I shouldn't be crying honestly. This whole marriage shit is a mistake and I shouldn't care. And yet, I do. I care about us. I care about him. I care whether he's happy or not. But he could give less then two shits about me.

—an hour later—
"I don't know Mollie. I'm just done with everything. All this crap. I don't wanna get married at all. More then the first day I found out." I say and she sighs. I'm currently on the phone with Mollie. She's like the only person I can vent to.
"Tell him how you feel J. Maybe that'll change his mind or something. Marriage is a two sided commitment. He can't just half ass his side while you tackle a bunch of stuff yourself." She says
"I know. But I don't think he understands that or he just doesn't care. Probably both." I say. I hear the front door open and close and then keys being thrown somewhere.
"I'll call you back ok?" I say to her
"Ok Jennie. Be careful." She says and I laugh
"I will Mollie." I say
"Alright. Bye love you." She says
"Love you too, bye." I say and then hang up. I let out a heavy breath just as Jack walks into the room. He glances at me and then throw his jacket on the bed and takes his shoes off. He pulls his shirt off and bite my lip and look down at my phone. Jack is very good looking. And has a very nice body.
"Can you toss me that black shirt?" He asks pointing to the shirt on the dresser. I grab it and throw it to him.
"My mom is thinking about letting us have the wedding in the backyard." I tell him as he puts the shirt on.
"Ok? Like the whole wedding or just the ceremony?" He asks
"Whole." I say and he nods. My phone dings and I glance at it. It's from my mom.
Momma: don't forget to remind Jack that him and the guys need to get fitted for their suits.
"And you and the guys need to get fitted for your suits." I say and he nods
"I know." He says. I can tell he's annoyed so I don't push anything. I sigh and get off the bed, grabbing my phone.
"I'm gonna go out back." I say walking out of the room. I walk downstairs and then outside to the back. I sit down in one of the rocking chairs that face our yard. There's a bunch of trees and flowers growing in the back. It's super shady and nice. I start to picture the wedding in the back yard. I'm walking down the aisle, dress flowing behind me. Jack's smiling at me as I walk closer to him. I glance at my mom and she's crying, same with Kathrine. They both give me thumbs up. My day dream gets disrupted by the back door closing. I look behind me and see Jack. I turn back around and bring my legs up to my chest.
"It's cold out here Jennie." He says. Before I can control my mouth, I speak
"Nice of you to start caring about me." I mumble. He sits next to me, letting out a huff as he does so.
"Can we not argue?" He asks
"I'm not arguing." I say
"No but when you say something, it always turns into an argument, and I don't want to argue, I wanna talk." He says
"I-" I cut myself off as I go to..well argue.
"I didn't mean what I said earlier." He says
"I did."
"Yea I know. Your honest and you mean what you say." He says. There's a few beats of silence.
"I guess that's what I'm....nervous about. I've never had someone tell me how they really feel. I've always dated fake people. Girls who wanna be with me for fame and will do anything to please me. Your stubborn." He says and I glare at him
"In a good way." He says and I roll my eyes
"I'm not stubborn. I care. It's completely different. If I care for someone, I'm completely honest with them." I say and he nods
"I didn't expect that from you. You look so shy and reserved and I guess...I assumed you were like the other girls. But you sure as hell are not." He says and I lightly laugh.
"So your scared of the truth?" I ask and he shrugs and nods
"I guess so." He says
"I was raised to share my feelings. I do it in horrible ways but I share them. They probably aren't clear, but they are there." He says and I nod.
"Your sister told me." I say
"Which one?" He asks
"Laura." I say and he laughs
"From now on I'll try and share how I'm feeling." He says and I look at him
"That's not what I'm worried about." I say and he frowns
"It feels like you could give less then two shits about me while I would put you before everything." I say, he's about to speak but I cut him off
"Every night you go out, I stay up till I know you are safely back here. I stay up, wondering if I'm gonna get a call that you've been rushed to the hospital from a car accident. I stay up every night, wondering if your thinking the same thing while your out partying. If you wondering what I'm doing. Where I'm at. How I'm feeling. If I'm ok or not. And when you come home wasted out of your mind, and I watch your story, all of those worries that I have about you worrying about me, disappear. Because, from the amount of drinking you've done. The amount of girls you've kissed. The amount of smoking you've done. I know the only thing on your mind at that time, is getting away from reality. And your focused on yourself. Not who's sitting up at home at 2 in the morning, hoping and praying that you'll come home safe." I say. I only realize I'm crying when a tear falls on my hand
"And I shouldn't care about this much when I hardly know you. But I do, and it sucks seeing you making out with other girls or slowing drinking your life away, while I'm struggling to keep myself sane while your gone. It sucks ass Jack." I say he looks away and out at the yard. I wipe under my eyes and sniffle.  
"I didn't plan on caring for you this much, too the point where I stress about you every time your away from the house and don't answer your phone." I say and he sighs and puts his face in his hands, leaning his elbows against his knees. I eventually stop crying.
"Now I feel stupid cuz I thought the first time I would cry around you was the wedding. If that even happens." I say and he stays silent. I sigh and stand up.
"I'm gonna go call around to some venues." I say starting to walk away. I feel his hand go around my arm and he lightly pulls me towards him. He looks at me and I bite my lip.
"Jennie." He says and I nod
"I love you too."