Josh's POV:
I wasn't doing it on purpose. I wasn't doing it to hurt her. Actually it was for the opposite reason. To help her. To not hurt her as much as I got hurt.
The time was nearly here, she didn't know it, but I did. I'm trying to make it easier for her, better if you will.
No one else can know. Not even you. It's so hard to keep this secret, I just want to tell her to be able to get her ready for it, but I can't. If I do it will go so much worse for her. And me. But me I don't really care about as much.
She makes me feel alive again. Though physically impossible. Her voice fills my ears with the most melodious sounds. Her looks fill my head with the most beautiful pictures and brings light to my thoughts on the dark days. She's perfect. What we had was perfect. And I had to fuck it up for the purpose of saving her.
Why the fuck am I like this?
Why do I do this to myself?
Why do I do it to her?
I guess that's what happens when you're an immense fuck up in life.
A/N This was a bit different and I hope you enjoy✨
This is helping the story along by dropping a few clues about where the ending will be and where the rest of the book is heading✌
Thanks for everything guys❤
As always,
Satan🖤
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