The split

Chapter 4

🌼Asia Dee🌼

"Honestly I don't know what to say to him, he won't even hear me out. I tried to talk to him when he came to my family gathering, but he just blew me off kept pushing me away. He kept saying he didn't want to hear it, and he don't care. What should I do Morgan?" I asked staring at TJ's sister.

"I mean you hurt him, you really hurt him. He usually don't let anyone in and he let you in and you hurt him. He loved you Asia, and everything he told you his ex did to him, you did. You told him you wouldn't, you gained his trust and you cheated on him. He hasn't been the same since you, you must've really meant a lot to him and really hurt him.

He hasn't been in a relationship since, all he has been doing is fucking bitch after bitch. He doesn't trust any female outside of his blood, you really fucked him up. So no I don't think getting him back will be easy at all. But I do know it's possible for you to get him back. Obviously he loved you a lot, and no matter how bad a person hurts you, no matter how bad you want to, you can't just stop loving them." Morgan said and I just stared at her as I felt myself on the verge of tears.

I felt them fill my eyes and I blew out a deep breath then turned my head away from her. "Don't cry," She said rubbing my back. "I don't want to, but I've really fucked up. He might not even forgive me yet along take me back. He wants absolutely nothing to do with me, you should've saw the way he treated me at the gathering. He wouldn't he look at me, and he kept walking away.

I looked crazy in front of my family, well those who hadn't left already. I tried to make him listen and we went outside and he left. He pulled off right in my face, I was standing there looking stupid." I said as I cried and started breaking down and not able to stop.

I tried to stop crying but my body started to tremble uncontrollably. "Not to be an ass, but it's not worse than what you did to him. You didn't look more stupid than you made him look and feel at that moment when he caught you." She said and I just cried a little harder.

"Well look on the bright side," she said rubbing my back. I looked at her as I am still trying to stop crying. "There's still a possibility you can get him back and be better this time." She said and I rolled my eyes and stood up. "Yea, from the looks of it, that'll happen as soon as hell freezes over." I said before grabbing my jacket and putting it on.

"You're leaving?" She asked and I sniffled and nodded before zipping my jacket up. "Yea, don't want to ruin the rest of your night." I said and before I walked to the door. "You haven't yet, I'm just being a good friend you know?" She said and I smiled. "That's nice, but I think I'm just gonna go." I said wiping my tears. I got myself together mentally and emotionally as much as I could before I opened the door and TJ stood right there as he rung the doorbell.

He looked shocked to see me but not the least bit of happy. "Sorry, you can go in..I...I'm leaving." I said before putting my head down and walking past him. "Asia," Morgan said and I just kept walking as I put my hands in my jacket pockets. If he doesn't want to talk then I can't force him, and I won't try to make him do something he don't want to do.

He obviously don't want to talk, and he obviously don't want to see me or be around or near me. "Hey stop, I'm talking to you." Morgan said grabbing my arm. I suppose she jogged up to me, I don't know. "I have to go," I said not in the mood to play this game. "Where? Home?" She asked sarcastically.

"Yes," I said and she rolled her eyes. "For what? To be alone and do absolutely nothing?" She asked and I exhaled and rolled my eyes. "My little sister is there, she's with me until she figure out what she want to do. I don't want to leave her there alone isolated in a house and be at a beach." I said ready to walk off but trying to have some respect for Morgan.

"Well this will take a second, just talk to him. He agreed to have a small talk, right here and right now. Don't blow this, you cried about him not listening before. Well he is listening now and you're ready to walk away." She said and I squeezed my eyes shut and gripped my forehead as I looked up. "Alright," I said and I walked back to her house. I leaned against her garage door and she kept walking.

She walked to her porch and patted TJ's shoulder on her way inside her house. She walked inside of her house and I saw him take a deep breath before he started walking slowly down to me. I looked away knowing he doesn't want to talk or hear me out, but I suppose with his mother, family members, and Morgan in his ear he is doing this to get them off his back. So he can at least say he heard me out and we talked.

He cleared his throat and I looked at him, trying to stay calm and act like I didn't just have a meltdown in his sister's house and like he didn't catch me. "Asia," He said greeting me the best way he knows how in this situation. "TJ," I said back as we both got quiet. I'm now at a lost for words when he's willing to listen, ain't this some bullshit.

"You wanted to talk?" He asked and I bit my bottom lip and looked down as I nodded. "I don't know if this is for some type of closure for you, but I'm good. So say what you gotta say while I'm here and listening. I'll say what you want to hear so you can move on and we can go on about our business." He said and I looked up at him.

"So we can go on about our business?" I asked rhetorically. "Yea, Ion need you running to my mom and sister with these droopy, heavy crybaby ass tears for them to be all on my back talkin bout some talk to you. Well I'm listening, say what you gotta say so I can keep it movin." He said shocking the hell out of me.

He wasn't this disrespectful or spiteful the last time we were together or ever until now. His mom and Morgan said he had changed, but they didn't say he changed this much. Did I really turn him into a dog? Did I really turn a respectful and caring person into a disrespectful and spiteful person?

"I wanted to apologize," I said disregarding his tone his disrespectful manner because I know I caused it and deserve it. "It ain't doing nothing for me, it's just making you feel better." He said and I rolled my eyes and looked at him. "You've made that very clear already, you don't have to repeat yourself. You also said you would listen and say what I need you or want you to say. Or is that a problem for you now?" I asked snapping back at him.

He took a deep breath then exhaled and stared at me. "Go ahead, whatever floats your boat, I know I didn't." He said and I really don't want to cry right now but he keeps throwing low blows reminding me of what I did when I haven't even forgotten. "But that's the thing, you did and more. TJ.....it was a mistake everyone makes them. I thought you were cheating on me with your ex," I said as my eyes filled with tears ignoring my demand not to.

"So that should justify your actions? Your assumptions? Besides you can't use that as an excuse when I came to you earlier that day and we spoke and I told you, I reassured you that nothing happened between us. But you still went and fucked dude, so that's no excuse." He said staring at me and I didn't say anything.

"Unless you were already fucking him before we ever spoke," he said and I looked down not able to look him in his eyes. "Of course, I should've known. You didn't only fuck him once it was an ongoing thing. You cheated out of fear of your own assumptions of what I was doing. Then when I told you nothing happened, you still went back to him and kept fucking him.

You liked it, you didn't care about me. You knew you were wrong and still went back and continued to do what you were doing. That's why you wanted me to leave so bad that day isn't it? You already planned that shit, you already planned to fuck him didn't you?" He asked as a tear fell from my eye.

"Of course you did, I was too stupid and hung up on you to see it. But now I see you for who you really are Asia. I guess you're not different from the other girls after all. You're just like the ex you thought I was fucking, I meant nothing to you. My mother, my sister, my family, we all meant nothing to you. You have them eating from the palms of your hands, as you try to play sorry because you feel fucking guilty.

I cared back then and you didn't, you just played like you did. I don't care that you didn't care back then, because I don't care now and I'm not going to pretend to care about you having closure. Fuck you, I'm outta here." He said as more and more tears fell from my eyes. He started walking off to his car and I just watched him.

"TJ," I said and he flicked me off from behind before he reached his car and got in. I watched him drive off again as I stood there crying. I walked as my whole body trembled as I tried to cry as quietly as I can. I got in my car and cried a little harder for a good two minutes before pulling off.