Same Love

Chapter 15

The song goes so well with this chapter just saying!

Friday

I awoke from my sleep to see that I was in a pair of my boxers. I felt better than this morning. My fever went down and I stopped sweating so badly. I turned to face my alarm clock, which showed 12:00 AM in huge red numbers and letters. Shrugging my shoulders I turned to snuggle with Liam, but quickly felt nothing but sheets and blankets.

"Liam?" I spoke out confused.

Slowly I threw the blanket off my body. My petite feet hitting the floor.

The room was dark except for the the lamp that was emitting light on the corner my desk.

I raised a brow as I saw Liam sitting on my desk char.

"Liam?" I whispered out.

Rubbing my eyes like a child. I walked slowly towards him. The closer I got the more the atmosphere felt tense.

Why?

I knew something I was wrong.
Inching closer I whispered his name.

"Liam?"

Slowly I peaked over his broad shoulder only for my heart to drop.

There my crush was.

My lover.

Reading my journal.

I was not sick because he was in my journal or because he was not beside me when I woke up. I was sick to my stomach because of the page he was reading, which wasn't even dated.

What he was reading was the suicide note that I had written to anyone who found me. I read over the lines that reminded me of all the depression and pain.

How do I respond?

Do I have a right to feel guilty or do I have a right to feel angry?

All I knew was the fact that I was going to have to decide right now. Was I really going to kill myself Today or not?

Soon Liam turned around. His eyes were all puffy and red. Tears had just stopped streaming down his face.

That moment my heart broke into two. I had to hold onto my stand to keep from falling. So this is what a broken heart feels like. God I was in pain. How the hell did I mange to hurt him. He was the last person I wanted hurt.

We both stared at each other in silence for a while.

What do I do? I question myself.

Then Liam answered my question. He stood up quickly. His eyes hitting mine as he turned his body to face me. My heart sank a bit more from how he look so intimidating.

"Liam?" I croaked out.

He began walking towards me causing me to back up. His gaze was deadly and upsetting.

Soon I began to step back even more only to have my back flat against my bedroom wall. Liam's hand struck beside my head causing me to flinch a bit. His face grew close to mine, but he stopped mid-way. His breathe was hot on my face.

"Zayn." He sternly spoke.

My body almost went limp. His voice was husk and raspy.

"Liam-Liam?" I stuttered out a bit scared.

Biting his lower lip slowly, he let it go.

"Do you love me?" He spoke out fully.

Raising a brow I felt confused by the question.

"What??" I said.

He repeated the question, but a bit more forceful this time.

"Do you love me?"

Do I?

Was that even a trick question?

I allowed myself to be bullied since the eight grade because I admitted that I  was gay, why did I admit that?

Because I was truly, madly, deeply in love with Liam James Payne. But I never thought in a million years that he would be in love with me.

That's why I was going to end my life. 

Because there was no point of hiding my sexuality but there was no one who compared to him and I couldn't take the death glares and rude comments anymore.

Why put myself through that?

But come Monday when we where partnered up. We fell even harder for one another. I found out that day that my crush had like me too.

I knew from Monday that Fridays plans where gone and I would never do it.

Because I had Liam.

Looking my tall, beautiful, brown eyed boyfriend in the eyes, I smiled a little.

"No, I don't love you.... I am truly madly, deeply, and foolishly in love with you. Being partnered up with you on Monday changed everything. Even today's plans. Because Liam-" I paused as I held his face gently into my hands.

He didn't flinch but his eyes closed momentarily. My face became flushed at his action. Breathing slowly I leaned closer towards his ear and whispered.

"You saved me from my self and I'm even more in love with you because of that."

Then my small lips kissed his cooled cheek. As my head moved back I was pinned against the wall and kissed harshly by Liam, but the thing was this kiss felt more passionate than any other kiss we have ever shared..

~okay so I've got good news bad news and yeah! First off. I Like to dedicate this chapter to @NarryGurl37 Your lovely person and beautiful thanks for you kind comments!:D 2. Bad news: This story going to end soon. Yeah I know

"What! But there's not even that many chapters!!!"

But! That's where the good news come in. I think I'll make a trilogy to it! comment and tell me what you think! okaye well I'm going to go thx you everyone's comments votes and support you guys are the best!XD

~love mo