Savior (danisnotonfire)

       Hi. My name is Dan Howell. I am just you're avreage everyday failure at life, as I would call myself. I really don't have that many friends. Well, none at all. I don't have anything to do but watch YouTubers. I've always wanted to be one, but, I guess I've never really had the courage to. Favorite YouTuber? AmazingPhil, to be honest. I guess I just, get him. And how he is always telling everyone he is very 'socialable' makes me laugh.

Well aside from him being my favorite, I guess I had sort of formed a tiny crush on him. The way he laughed, spoke, it was just him. And I loved that. Whenever he posted a new video, I would watch it over and over again. It would never get boring. "And I will be having a meet-up with a commenter who sends me the best message on Tumblr! I don't really know how I'm going to do this, but I'll figure out a way to meet one of you. Bye!" I stared at my screen happily. This could be the chance. But he will probably get over 500,000 messages so why even bother.

After a bit of thinking, I just decided to go ahead and do it. I opened the window with Tumblr, and started a fan-mail message to him. "Hi Phil! You are probably not going to get this, but I can dream right? You may be thinking right now that I am a 12 year old fangirl, because I would think I was. But I'm not. Suprisingly. I am actually a 22 year old bisexual boy. Okay okay before you click delete on this shit, I actually want to tell you something. You are my favorite YouTuber. I watch your videos because they make me happy and keep me from cutting. I have no friends and literally only spend my life on the computer. I just watched your video and decided, why not. So, you'll probably pick some 12 year old girl who wrote 'Phil I love you!!11!!!1' But I'm only writing this because maybe you would read it one day. ~ Dan" 

I clicked send before I had another thought. I sighed and moved my laptop off of my stomach. I got up and turned on the TV. I laid there thinking about my letter to him. I shouldn't have sent it. It was stupid. I hated it. Goddammit Dan! You idiot! But there was no way I could unsend it. I started to cry a little until I fell asleep. 

I was awoken by the sound of my phone buzzing. I picked it up, expecting a notification for a spam email or something, but instead saw the Tumblr logo and message icon. I unlocked it and saw who it was from. AmazingPhil. Holy. Fucking. Shit. It was 9:32 P.M. I had fallen asleep at 2:23 P.M. Oh. My. God. I covered my mouth with my hand to keep from screaming. This is what it said, "Hey Dan! I could tell that you were a little shy in sending it to me, but I won't judge you! I'm completely fine with you being the way you are! I have all sorts of fans! You're message was my favorite so I decided to meet you! Just send me you're Skype and I'll answer! ~ Phil" 

I felt as if I had been hit by a train. Holy shit. I sent him my Skype and waited. After about 5 minutes of staring at my computer screen, I started to mess with my hair. A couple minutes the later, the Skype tone came blasting into my ears since I had my headphones on. "SHIT!" I said out loud. I answered it, and Phil's wonderful face came up on the screen. My mouth widened and Phil laughed. "Hi Dan!" I tried to speak, but couldn't. I finally stuttered out a, "H-Hi Ph-Phil..." Phil smiled. "What's that on your shirt?" I looked down and saw some pizza sauce on it. I blushed and wiped it off. "Oh...uh...just some-some...p-pizza sauce..." 

"You really are shy aren't you?" He said tilting his head to the side. I smiled. "Y-yes I guess..." "Alright, so when do you want me to meet you? You seem really nice." I blushed bright red. "Uh, would you mind...if it was, maybe, here? You know, at my house...?" Phil looked down for a minute, then back up. Smiling. "I'd love that. Just tell me where you live and I'll come over." I typed in my adress and saw him look at it and write it down. "That's not far from here so see you in...1 hour?" "Yeah. That's fine." "Okay, bye!" "Bye..." I clicked end and sighed. I added Phil as a contact and looked down at myself. I grimaced and decided to get in the shower before he came over.

I moved my laptop and stood up, walking towards the bathroom. I removed my clothes and got into the shower and started humming to myself. I stepped out about 45 minutes later and dried off a bit before I heard the doorbell ring. Damn it. I still had my hobbit hair that I hated and I was just in a towel. "ONE SECOND!" I yelled. I threw on a shirt and struggled into boxers and my black skinny jeans and ran towards the door. I didn't care about my hair. I saw Phil tapping his foot. "Oh hi, Dan!" He hugged me and I blushed and hugged back. He let go and stepped inside. 

"I like your hair." Phil said touching it. "You do?" I asked grimacing. "Yes. I think it's cute." My eyes widened and he laughed. "Do you mind if I film a video with you here? I'm sure they'll want to see you." He blinked and I stared at him for a bit. He was adorable. "Oh no that's fine." "Great." He pulled out his phone and clicked on the camera. "Hey guys! I have the winner for the contest!" He looked over at me and smiled. "Uh...hi. I-I'm Dan Howell..." "I just arrived here and his place is nice." He held out the camera to show everybody, then flipped it back to us. He ended the video. "I'll finish it later.I just want to talk to you." I heard another knock on the door. "I'll get it." I said. I opened the door to see Casey."Dan! I just came by to give you-wait. Who is that?" She asked pointing to Phil. 

"Is that-is that Phil?!" She gasped and ran up to him and hugged him. Phil smiled and hugged her back making me jealous. She pulled away from him and smiled. "Phil!" "Hey." He said in a low tone. "What are you doing here?!" She really needed to shut up. This was my time with Phil. Not her's. "Well Dan won a meet-up with me..." I interuppted him. "Yeah so you should probably get going." She looked at me with a perplexed look on her face. "Oh Dan don't be like that. She's cute so we should let her stay." That hit me hard. "I-I'm cute?" She asked. Here we go. "Very." Phil replied. She stood on her toes and kissed him lightly. His hands cupped around her cheeks and he kissed her back. I stared at them, not knowing what to say. Wanting to cry. He barely even knew her. Well, didn't, to be honest.

A slight tear slipped down my cheek. I bit my lip and tears started to pour out. Phil didn't even notice as he carried on kissing her. I ran up and grabbed her by the back of her shirt and pulled her away. "DAN!" She yelled. She turned around and glared at me. "WHAT THE HELL WAS THAT FOR?" I didn't care and pushed her out of the way, to Phil. "What's wrong with you?" He asked. I kissed him and he pushed me off. I stumbled back, hurting on the inside. "What the hell?!" He grabbed Casey by the arm and ran out. I collapsed onto the floor in tears.