Up to date: I finally came out to everyone I care about officially on February/18th/2015 I came out to that one parent! I hope who ever is reading this , you find the courage to like i did ! I love you c:
Ever had those times were your just so confused on who you are? Or who you are? Or even what you believe in? Have you ever had such strong feeling towards something that it's screaming, itching or even seeping out of you or at least trying to? Have you ever been confused on who you "should" be or who you "expected" to be? Ever had just that one parent that you know you know you can't tell that certain thing because they might judge you or never look at you the same way?
Have you ever felt likings towards things or people that people tell you shouldn't like or have one parent sit there and tell you how they feel towards something but have no idea that inside you want to burst and tell the truth of who you are? But you can't. Because the thought of them hating you because of it is too hard to bare.
The so to be said "consequences" of them knowing what it is you have hiding deep with your hollow soul just scratching and itching for you just so you'll never admit the person who you truly are. The judgement of the world against you. Because most people believe that what it is you are or what you believe is wrong. Just because some old thing told you it was wrong?
If you have ever had this feeling or any of these feelings i have too. Whether it's a matter of sexuality as in my case or just in confusion of your future or both maybe even something more?
Well I want you to know that i'm still trying to over come these feelings of being afraid of who i am and admitting it to myself that i'm fine with who i am. If someone isn't then i don't need them because if they can't accept me from me then i don't need them at all in my life.
One Day.
One Time.
One Hour.
One Minute.
One Second.
No matter when..
I'll find that courage deep within me and let that one person who cause all my feelings about this and tell them who i am. and if they can't accept me then i'll just move on because i am me and i won't let them get in my way . I love me for me.
And If it really bothers you to know what or who i am. I'm a lesbian. Labels aren't my thing but if you want an identification that's who i am and i couldn't be prouder !!
Judge me all you want but I've learned to accept myself and nothing will knock me down not again~!
Not EVER again !
If you ever want to talk about sexuality problems or maybe any problems ill do my best I can to help!
Fill free to message me anytime I'm always here for you. If you feel no one is...just know i am here.
You can always talk to me about anything ! i don't judge. I just want to help any other lgbt or even someone who just needs some help or someone.
Just remember...
I'm here for you.
And Lastly,
No hate!
and.........
I LOVE YOU !
Byeeee!
~Amber c:
