I'm Proud Of The Demon In Me (Ricky Horror)

Drown

I've been driving for about 5 hours and Katrina has slept the whole time. There's a lot I want to tell her before we get to the order's headquarters but I don't want to bother her. I've never seen her look so peaceful. She starts to stir a little then finally wakes up completely.

"Are we there yet?" she asks with a soft smile

"Half way." I state

"Oh" she says with an air of disappointment

We sit in silence for a little while until I decide to speak up.

"There's a few things I want to tell you about before we arrive. It will help you understand how the order members are probably going to treat me." I sullenly state. 

She just nods and gestures for me to continue. Like I'm not about to spill my guts out to her.

I take a deep breathe before I begin. "I've tried to kill myself many times." I say my voice shaky. "The first time I jumped off a cliff. I was in Lahinch, Ireland a town conveniently close to the Cliffs of Moher. I was there on a mission for the order with my 3 most loyal demons, Chris, Angelo and Ryan. We were there to recruit some more followers. Whispers told me that Lahinch was the location of a very bloody battle between demons, vampires and hunters and huntresses. The Demons and vampires did win as I eventually found out this battle actually did happen. The four of us after talking to some locals we went to what was believed to be where the battle took place. It was the highest point on the cliffs. An estimated 700 feet above the Atlantic ocean. I used the same spell that I previously used at the church. I thought it didn't work because nothing strange happened. This made me feel like a complete failure so I thought it was only appropriate to throw myself off the edge of the cliff. I survived with barely a scratch though Chris did have to teleport to get me out of the water and I was unconscious for about a week afterward. When I did finally wake up I discovered the spell did in fact work. Quite a few demons joined my ranks and even a few vampires. It was quite amazing because the 4 of us turned into almost 50. We were also quite lucky because Ryan is very skilled at using portal magic. A rare thing to come across. He had opened up a casual portal to the order's headquarters. The only limit on his power is that he can't open portals to places he's never been. That was the first time. I'm just going to tell you about the last time now." 

She nods and I continue

"Six years ago I started getting these really bad episodes of depression. They would come and go. It was a huge issue because I was the leader and even though I'm good at hiding things this wasn't something I could hide. Though was able to hide it until I started to down spiral about a year later. At that point I was an outright alcoholic. Before I would get drunk when there wasn't anything I deemed important which was about 3 or 4 times a week. But now I had a drink in my hand from the time I woke up to the time I went to bed it didn't matter what was going on or what important people I had to meet with. At this point my grip on the order was quite weak. Chris had stepped up and was doing my duties for me. He didn't think I liked that he was doing that but I was grateful. I couldn't've asked for a better second in command. He was better at it than I ever was anyway. This went on for a few months till I hit absolute rock bottom. That's when I finally decided to try to end it all. Or so I thought I was. It was a cold November evening it was appropriately raining. I told Chris I was going out and quickly left soon after with my gun in the holster. I got to a garden full of dead flowers. I thought it was a fitting place to die. I sat on a beautiful ornate bench and downed some vodka. I then loaded my gun, put it in my mouth and pulled the trigger. I felt a very sharp pain then nothing at all. This is where the human part of me turned vampire. If a young vampire called Vinny hadn't of been following me I wouldn't be here. That bullet would've killed me if that kid hadn't of acted so fast at turning me. I wonder why he didn't stop me. Though anyways I'm forever grateful for him because without him I would've never met you."

She leans over and wraps her arms around me then kisses my cheek. She proceeds to position herself so her head is in my lap and her feet are pressing against the roof.

"I will always love you Ricky." She smiles at me and reaches up and strokes my hair. She kind of looks like a cat playing with a string.

"As I will love you my sweet little Kat." I say trying out the nickname I just thought of for her. She blushes and smiles brightly.

"You do not know how long It's been since someone has called me that. The only people who called me that were the friends I had before I was sent to that place. I miss them, but they probably have forgotten about me by now." I can hear the sadness in her voice.

"I might be able help you find them eventually." I tell her in attempt to comfort her.

"I'd really like that." She says voice cracking and tears streaming down her cheeks.