Sometimes I wonder if love is real, I keep getting fucked over when people find out I like them. I may not be the best looking but I don't think I'm that ugly. My exes all hate me and blame me for anything (besides one of them) and I don't know, it makes me think that I have no hope with getting into a relationship.
I do really want to date but when I find someone I like they end up being taken or I'm just just not what they're looking for.
Why am I creating this? Well it won't be daily but one thing I know is that no one will read it and I can just pour my heart out.
I keep getting bullied at school and I'm really happy that I didn't have to go today, I just don't like people.
I like this one guy and I'm so scared that he's gonna find someone else. But of course I would still stay by his side if someone else had him. He's my best friend and I don't want to ruin anything with him. I know he's not in the right state of mind right now so I can wait. He makes me happy and I love talking to him even though he makes bad jokes. He's amazing and sweet and deserves the best.
Anyway, that's it for now.
Buh bye.
