Life damner

Hybrid

" Okay Ms. Jay."

" That is not my name!"

" Then what is it?"

" It's  Keiran, jerkwadd."

" A bit rude are we?"

" Only to people trying to kill me. Plus I am a demon after all."

" Yes, but you don't really want to be rude do you? You truly are a nice person? You do it for her. That girl we made you leave behind?"

" None of your bussiness."

" She calls you jay because you told her a lie? To " Protect" Her?"

" You better stay away!"

" Or what? You'll rip my limbs off and use my head as a basketball?"

" I was going to say rip your eyeballs out and use them as golf balls, but you get the gist."

" Awe how sweet you were going to be nicer with your torchure."

" Call it what you will, but I call it slow and painful. Mosying along instead of getting to the point straight on."

" Well okay. Now do you know why you're here?"

" To die."

" No. You are here because you are a demon hybrid."

" Sorry I only understand english."

" You have multiple traits of different kinds of demons. You are what makes the world afraid."

" Okay, so what does that mean for me?"

" It means nothing for you. You will be locked here while we study you."

" Um how about no."

" Well you really have no choice."

" Well make one. I want out."

" Sorry sweets. Looks like you are stuck."

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Sunlight blasts through my eyelids like a camera on flash. I bolt up and realize I'm safe in Arizona. That guy was such a douche. A hybrid? Like what kind of demons? His words replay in my head as I get ready and sluggishly drive down the highway. I don't realize where I'm going until I see Paxton's apartment. It's been 2 weeks since we last spoke. I found a job at a bar so I haven't really thought about him. Except in the morning after I wake up, at night before I fall asleep, and every thought in between. I stop myself before fully making it to his door. I am not doing this to myself and I'm especially not doing this to him. I march my butt back to the car and drive off without looking back. Tears stream down my pale face as I turn the corner to the bar.

My hair sways as I make my way to the bar. When behind the counter I refill beers and make shots for tables all around. People are dancing erotically and others are peacefully sipping their beverage. Trying to keep the drunks happy with refills I hear the bell on the door jingle. I don't look up to see who it is and continue to serve. When I finally retreat behind the counter I notice Dark brown eyes watching me. I steel another look to see who it is. Paxton is sitting there waiting for me to notice him, but I act as if he isn't there. If you act like you don't see him maybe he'll go away.

" Keiran?"

Awe crud! I turn and meet his ivy eyes. I try to look stern and somber, but the way he is looking at me makes me weak in the knees.

" Keiran I don't know what made you mad at me, but I'm sorry. If it was the kiss then I'm really sorry."

" If it were the kiss don't you think I would have left long before morning?" I say this light, but with slight edge.

" I-I Guess, b-but honestly I-I don't know."

Hearing him stutter over his words kills me, but I keep pressing the composure on my face until I hear him leave.

When the bar finally closes I have my aching feet carry me to the car. I sit in silence for about half a second then start to ball. I have never felt so guilty or so lost. I don't know what to do and it hurts. I don't want to hurt like this. I need to leave. I need to get away from him. I don't have enough money to leave. Crap!

" Crap."

When I get enough I'm going to leave Arizona behind. Maybe I'll go back and get Lex. Or maybe I'll just go alone. After all I did lie, but It was always to protect her..... or myself.

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The next couple of days end the same way. Me crying because I saw Paxton. He wants me bad, but I can't let him have me. I cannot get him hurt. I would never forgive myself.

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" Let us see Keiran. You have Succubus which means you will have sexual desires. That is bad for the man you pray on. Let me tell you. You also have Nickar genes. Those are nasty little devils. They are like sirens, but are able to cause natural disasters. Of course you have high demon power which means you have your own body unlike others where they are just a spirit. this my dear is why we call you a hybrid."

" Why don't I know this about myself?"

" You havent matured enough to gain the ability yet."

" And when I do?"

" You will be very powerful and as we have said before.... dangerous."

" When will I mature?"

" When you are 23 years old. You see demons maturity level is different from a regular humans. It takes you longer to mature than humans. Which is suprising considering you are a supernatural being."

" Go figure."

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6 weeks. 6 weeks until I am a fully mature demon. My life sucks. I'll want sex and to cause damage with water. I'm not ready to do that. I don't even want to do that in the first place. I want Paxton. I want to know him and love him, but I can't.  I need to stop torturing myself and leave this city!