my soul, my heart, myself.
it all changed after you. after the mistakes we made, after the problems we caused.
I never knew one person could possibly do that to me. I thought I'd never allow it. But oh God, how I loved it.
I loved feeling that rush with you. I loved never holding back from anything. But that all changed me, it changed you.
It made us cruel, it made us cold hearted with everything we came in contact with. Eventually with each other. Then poof. Like a trick in a magic show, you disappeared.
From that point forward I vowed to never fall in love again. To never allow myself to become close with anyone like that again. To never love someone as much as I loved you.
With that in mind, my whole perspective on life changed. I became sickening. Every one night stand after the other, every one rolled up killing stick after the other. That all became who I was.
No one cared about me anymore, no one wanted to love me anymore because they had seen how my love ruined you.
So I started to drink my life away.
Anything to make the pain of you being gone stop, I was willing to do. Even if it was just for a moment.
Still today, I think about you. I think about how happy we were together. How much I loved you and how much you loved me.
But I was just wondering, do you still think about me?
