January 8, 2018
These past few days have been very hard for myself and many people in my school. We lost a very amazing person, who was so nice and selfless. We lost our friend to suicide. She had her own problems in life but that never killed her smile or friendliness. Maureen got accepted to Montclair State and was scheduled to begin in the fall like the rest of us as seniors. She always gave me advice on how to handle things in life, I wish I could have helped her. I have always wanted that super power to go back to the past and fix everything that went wrong in peoples lives so it wouldn't lead to horrible things. I'm going to share some of the moments I have had with her personally:
I remember I used to walk with her to our English class and then I would walk her to her French class right after. We did that every day.
I would sit in English class and she sat in the back at the time but every time my teacher would do something weird I would look back at her with biggest smile. She had the perfect smile. And she had the laughter that was highly contagious. We used to joke around about how she laughed like a dolphin and she told me how her sister laughs like a seagull.
When the whole school found out about it, it was quiet and weird. I kept looking in the hallway expecting her to walk through. I sat in our guidance office, crying my eyes out because she was the only person who listened when I needed someone to talk to. She always gave me advice on what to do. She impacted my life in a good way. They brought in grief counselors to talk to everybody which didn't really help because we sat in a circle of complete silence. I sat there silently crying thinking that she was going to walk through that door and everything would be alright. But it wasn't. Its very awkward at school now because nobody sits at her lunch table and I can't even sit in some of my classes because I can't help but to look at her seat. Thinking that she is only absent and not thinking about the worst.
You know how they say spirits who leave unfinished business, they stay behind. I feel like Maureen is still here, but we can't see her.
I suggest that you read this first then listen to the song.
