To my dear lover

2.

11/5/2017

A lot of Time has past since we last talked, what ever happened to my best friend, my heart. Everything I once had disappeared with you.

But here's the crazy thing about all this, I think I still love you. Even though we nearly talk and when we do my heart beats like crazy and I'm a always jealous of the girls surrounding you. And how you always used to make time for me and avoid them, now everything's different......

I see you down the street and I smile and wave, you turn away and hang your head.

What are you doing now?

I always wonder, I always hope that someday when I'm much older and wiser. You'll come back to me, you'll come back to the memories of our love I'm sure was real.

My heart still beats but only for you.

You were my rise before I fall. Now I fall without a rise.

And I know this sounds crazy and I sound like a stalker, or a crazy psychopath. But I'm not.

At least I hope not. But you make me crazy, you save me and destroy me all at the same time.

These words I write to you, will never reach you. But I pray in some way, someday you will know everything I've been feeling and hep me forget this pain so real that you caused me.

So if I were to end it all like I was going to all those years ago when we first met.

Would you save me?

Would you care about me?

Would you notice that I'm still here, waiting for you to rescue me again.

But, if you don't. This time I will end it all.

The pain, the suffering, the hurt. I just can't do it without you.

And if I can't have you, then what's the point of living?