To my dear lover

5

25/2/2018

To my dear lover,

I know its all pointless,

School,

Friends,

Lovers,

Dreams.

Because the only thing they show you was how meaningless life is, it builds you up to knock you down, survival of the fittest on a larger scale.

If I had the chance to go back and decide if I was to be born or not, I would choose not to be born at all. Knowing you're not good enough in everything you do, it's the hardest thing to live with.

My heavy heart sings a melancholy medley, the saddest to have ever been created.

I'm no coward but I find it so hard to live a life so sad, filled with so much pain.

To be told you're never enough thought your whole life, smiling through the pain, wearing a mask because it makes things easier for others.

To hear the laughs of others while you're trying not to cry.

When people ask how you are, they expect you to be okay.

They expect you to have a perfect life, they expect you to be fearless and oblivious to others and how they treat you.

You're expected to be okay ALL THE FUCKING TIME.

No one ever says "it's okay to be not okay", the only people who would are the people that are always depressed. They flaunt how depressed they are and how much mental help they need that everyone has learnt to avoid them.

The only people you should be avoiding are those who never say anything because one day they WILL snap.

It's times like this when i miss you the most,

When my world is falling apart I'd wish you would build me back up.

Even though part of the reason I'm falling apart is you...

I want you to break me forever,

I could be happy as long as your in some way part of my life.

Even if it is just to hurt me...

I'd wait 1000 years just for you to notice me.

XXXXXX

YourSecretStalker