Unpredictable

Chapter 6

Alyssa's POV

"WAKE UP SISSYPOO" I heard Niall yell "Niall I swear I hate you some times" I said pushing him away "no you don't you don't hate anyone alyssa" he said rolling his eyes

"Yea your right I don't have it in me to hate any one what time is it anyway" I asked stretching "umm about 7 but I want you to come to our recording session with us pleeeaasssee" he asked getting on his knees and begging

"If you get out and let me get ready I will" I said as he smiled kissing my cheek and running out

I got out of bed and put on bright blue skinny jeans black tee shirt and lime green suspenders that I left off my shoulders and then a pair lime green vans and I added the jacket luke let me borrow cause it was cold here and I loved his smell

After I got dressed I went to the bath room and straightened my hair and applied a little bit of make up

Satisfied with my look I walked out of the room and met with Niall in the living room

"I thought the boys stayed over" I said as he stood up from the couch "they did they just left to get ready we're meting them there" he said smiling

I smiled back and hugged him tightly as if he was about to leave me he was taken aback by my actions but hugged me back "what was that for" he asked after our embrace

"Because you never know when your last day will be" I said as his smile faded and he hugged me again "I'm not saying my goodbyes until you do there is no way in hell" he said burring his face in my hair

"Well let's get going so I'm not yelled at" he said as we walked out and made our way to the recording studio

When we got there everyone else was already there "hi boys" I said walking up to them "hey" they all said in unison

"Hi Alyssa" Luke said waving I smiled and took a seat beside him "ok can we have the one direction boys first" Paul asked as all the lads disappeared into the booth

"That's a nice coat you have" Luke said smiling "I'm sorry did you want it back" I asked starting to take it off before he stopped me "no you keep it,it may be my favourite coat but I think I'll live can I see your phone real quick" he said as I smiled

"Umm ok" I said handing him my phone "oh my god I love your case" he said examining my penguin phone case "thank you Niall got it for me it's my favorite animal" I said smiling "really mine to" he said typing away on my phone

"Here you go" he said handing me my phone back not even a second later I got a text from

'Sexiness' hey it's luke haha🐧

I giggled looking at him "really I'm right here you can just talk to me I won't bite" I said bitting my lip (haha) "I know but that takes the fun out of it" he said making a pouty face causing me to laugh

"Alyssa come here" I heard Niall say "ok..."i said getting up a walking to the booth "sing us a song"he pleaded "ok I just finished writing one that I want you too hear" I said sitting down as he and the boys got out of the booth

As I started to sing

I feel so numb
Staring at the shower wall
It's begun,
The feeling that the end has come
And now the water's cold

I tried to eat today
But the lump in my throat got in the way

In this time I've lost all sense of pride
I've called a hundred times
If I hear your voice I'll be fine

And I, I can't come alive
I want the room to take me under
'Cause I can't help but wonder
What if I had one more night for goodbye?
If you're not here to turn the lights off, I can't sleep
These four walls and me

I lay in bed
Can't seem to leave your side
Your pillow's wet
From all these tears I've cried
I won't say goodbye

I tried to smile today
Then I realized there's no point anyway

In this time I've lost all sense of pride
I've called a thousand times
If I hear your voice I'll be fine

And I, I can't come alive
I want the room to take me under
'Cause I can't help but wonder
What if I had one more night for goodbye?
If you're not here to turn the lights off I can't sleep
These four walls and me

Oh oh oh

And I, I can't come alive
I want the room to take me under
'Cause I can't help but wonder
What if I had one more night for goodbye?
If you're not here to turn the lights off I can't sleep
These four walls and me

I sang the last of it and once again had tears in my eyes as well as Niall but he was holding it in "that was amazing" Zayn said as every one else agreed

"Yea it really was" Niall said hugging me I hugged him back tightly letting a couple of tears fall he knew the song was for our parents

I wiped my tears as I sat back down at my seat next to Luke as the one direction boys went back in the booth to record about 12 more songs

'Sexiness'-Are you ok I know what that song was about do you wanna talk in the dressing room

I looked around and the other boys were playing video games so I looked at Luke who was already looking at me and nodded his head toward the door

I nodded and got up as he lead the way we walked in and sat on the couch

"I'm not going to talk I'll just listen to what you have to say" he said putting his arm around my shoulders

"I just don't know anymore I wish I could see them one more time that's all I want but I know that can't happen I know it's been about six months since they passed but to me it feels like they were here only yesterday and I hate it I hate to admit it but I've sometimes wanted to kill myself just to see them again" I said as he hugged my tightly and I let my tears fall "I shouldn't be putting all of this on you it's just to much" I said sniffling

"Shh I told you I'm not talking I'm here to listen" he said still hugging me I liked hugging Luke because for the first time in forever I felt complete in his arms