just a rant (crying warning)

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I was up late at night thinking about my friends and I realised just how important they are to me. I can't really describe exactly how I feel because it goes past my vocabulary knowledge at the moment but here's what I thought of

I would die for them a thousand times over

And I have a reason to

When I was in my old school, I didn't have best friends, don't get me wrong I was very social but...

I never had anyone that I could connect to on a deeper level then "friend" they all had best friends and when those people where gone they would always come to me to talk to but when the best friend came back... then they acted like I wasn't even there, like I didn't exist.

So when I moved I thought it was going to be the same, they were all going to have best friends and I'd be the backup. I was right, it went on for the rest of 5 grade but little did I know that the friends I made there would become my best friends later on like a guy I call "bubby" he and i were acquaintances and we made up a game where he would call me "sissy" and i would call him "bubby" that went on for a while and at the time it was only a game but now... its a special thing we do, no one else is aloud to call me that and no one can call him bubby exept me. When I went into 6th grade my friend had some major drama go on at the end of the year and I was the only one there for her and I told her that even when the world was against her I would stick to her side like glue and she promised she would do the same.

Now that I'm in 7th grade she made up with those people (most of them) and I told her about how I felt like a backup friend, let's just say she didn't take that well and treated me like I was the center of attention. Just that little action made me feel so much better and she helped me get stronger connections with other people in my friend group.

She has no idea how greatful I am, none of them know how greatful I am. They have no idea how much I truly and utterly love them. And I don't think they ever will but I can at least make them see this much even if it's just the tip of the iceberg.

They made me feel wanted.

They made me feel loved.

They spent hours upon hours listening to me rant at night and they don't know how much I love them. So guys if you're reading this, I just want to say you will always have an ally in me. I will be there to help you fight your wars and kill your demons. I love you all so much and thank you for making me feel important. Thank you, I love you guys!

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Thank you all! Thank you.

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