Today I had therapy. My therapist kept telling me that I was adorable and blah blah blah. I told her about how I have been lacking a lot of self-confidence. She was saying how a lot if people go through this abd how she understands but in reality no one understands unless they have taken two bottles of pills and didn't get what they wanted 24/7. Unless your family just sees all of the wrong, horrible things I've done. I feel alone even when I am in a huge crowd. Everyone tells me that this will pass but the thing is they have no idea what it's like. I have had a day where I could just die and then there are the rare days when I have a great day because there is a guy who tries there best to make me smile. He tells me that whenever I smile his day is made. Whenever he sees me laughing he wants to laugh because he is so glad that I am happy. He will do so much for me just to make sure I have a good day. But if I cry well that is a whole different story.
Life is so dumb. People always compare me to my siblings. Like when I have a D+ in a class that is like a foreign language to me. It's like they expect me to fail but they don't want me to.
I don't get how pie can just tear people down. I have tried to ignore so many times but it's hard when there is no one who sees the good in me. Not many people think I am smart or beautiful. I don't even think I am smart nor beautiful. There is like two or three people who actually talks positive about me.
Please make a comment if you have ever felt like this. Cause this feeling never goes away.
With my family it's like no matter how hard I try to get good grades, to be active or just to fit in I get shut down. Every freaking time. Even my mom doesn't see the good in me. But if you go to one of my teachers or one of the people I hang around they will try to build me up. But I mean what is the point of being built up if all I am gonna do when I get home is get shut down. It's weird how when I was at orchard place I was always being built up even by my family. I loved that. If I just told someone what I feel like during my 5 2s
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Just Venting
RandomThis story is about a girl who has no idea about her past and is always afraid of the future. It is all true and can be very vulnerable.
