The green hill rolled off into a dangerous cliff that collapsed into the stream below, the sunlight dipped beneath the hill as the stars began to dot the purplish sky. I breathed the sweet night air, my body still sore from the birth last week. My sweet baby, I took a deep breath, at least they would have a better life with whoever decided to adopt them. I put my hand in my pockets, a cold wind rippling behind me like a stone dropped in a river, the colors of the sunset became a wash of greys. My father.
"Hello dear father" I turned to meet him, balling my fists to stop them from shaking. My father just stared at me with his dead black eyes, hair as dark as the emptiness of an evil soul that walked on every street. He smiled, spitting out a cockroach that began to dig into the ground. "What do you want?" He gave a curt laugh.
"You know the same as always," my father said his hands waving about in the air. I grit my teeth, he needed to stop pestering. "You!" He interlaced his fingers together, a cocky grin.
"Then you know my answer." I walked past him whispering an incantation to end the purgatory he placed me in. There was a thud, and the air filled with lost power that rushed to me. Gods, what the hell was he doing? I turned to see my father on the ground his body thrashing as black ooze dripped from his eyes, ears, nose, and mouth turning the once green grass a putrid yellow. I could leave, and there would be nothing that he could do about it. Yet, if he died here and right now, the four horse men would be released.
I crawled to my father, his head in my lap, the ooze burning through my clothes but not my skin. I placed my hands on the sides of his head, closing my eyes as I dug into his brain searching for what was going on. I felt his parental love to me and my siblings, the disbelief of his... upcoming death? I took a deep breath and felt God. His warmth and love for every living thing. But, us. Those who had no choice in their birth, who were the children of the devil, whose heart is stained with sin. Wasn't he supposed to be all loving? Is the only person to love me is my father? Wait, I delved deeper into their connection- God, seemed weak because... because there weren't enough believers in the world.
My father glared up at me, a fire lighting up within his eyes, horns grew up from his forehead, though it all retreated as he continued to look up at me. I pushed away, wiping furiously at my eyes, I tried so hard to beg for forgiveness for my sins, for all those deaths I caused. I gave up my baby for him. Oh God! Warm hands wrapped my body as I began to sob. Daddy was right. No matter how much I denied him God, would never ever forgive me. I gripped at my fathers shirt his comfort foreign. He wiped the tears from my face, as I cooled down, I gave my baby up for no reason.
"Your child will grow up loved. More loved than you could've gave her." I nodded at my fathers words. "I want you to take my place as the devil. Your the only one of my children I can trust to not fuck this up."
"What do you mean?" I looked up to my father, a warm smile I only ever saw on his face. "I'd fuck it up badly." My father gave me a strange look.
"You understand what it means to be evil and have extreme power. You broke my incantation easily. And, you understand sacrifice for the greater good. None of your siblings understand that. And, you're the only one who knows the identities of the four horsemen" I looked to the ground. "Protect your daughter."
"What do I do!" I said stepping away from my father ready to follow any command he gave. He held my hand and led me to the edge of the cliff. His hand gripped mine tighter as we stopped at the edge. "I need to kill myself don't I." I looked to my father as he nodded. "I think this is fully appropriate to say." I struggled to speak through fits of laughter. "See you in hell." I jumped off the edge of cliff the wind rushing against my face. At least this way I would be able to see my child again.
AN: Suicide is never an option. If you are considering suicide please get help, there are people around you who love and care about you.
