Tamed (Ereri)

Chapter 37

Based off the pause he gives me before he says where he's been I can't tell if it's the truth or not.

It sounds believable though.

A business trip, but that wouldn't explain the lack of communication.

That wouldn't help explain and make better the pain I've been feeling or the sleepless nights I've been having.

If anything it makes the whole explanation sound even more like a lie.

There's so many wheels turning in my head analyzing trying to figure out the truth.

Trying to make a reason to...

"Eren! I've been calling your name for a while now for a while now are you okay"

Am I okay?

Am I alright in the head?

That mental wall I've built doesn't come tumbling down but instead throws itself at Levi.

"No!! I'm not Levi!! You've been gone for way to long! You haven't contacted me or even attempted to come and see me!

Do you know how it feels to feel like your in heaven one day then pushed down to hell the next!! I bet you don't do you considering your the one who shoved me and caused me to feel like this...

Do you know how it feels to feel abandoned....

Do you know I've been spiraling outta control heading do hill!!

Did you know I was turning into my mother...."

All a sudden the spark of anger that was fueled by pain has dwindled down.

I'm no longer angry, I don't know what I am anymore. All I wanted was happiness, all I wanted was for Levi to stay with me.

I didn't ask for any of this heart ache..

But then again who said love be easy?

I really do love this man and by the expression on his face right now after my spurt of anger I'd like to say he loves me to.

I want to believe that it really isn't as bad as it seems.

But he's left me! Not only left me but while I'm pregnant at that!

I don't understand anything anymore at the moment all I know is that I've given this man in front of me all my love.

"Eren... I'm... I..."

I've never seen him stumbled on his words like this and the fact that it looks like he's trying almost make my heart run back to him.

Almost.

It's going to take more then words to allow me to let him walk back into my life.

It's going to have to be put into action.

I want to see results. Not just hear words to make me feel better for now then make me feel like shit later.

That is if I do take him back.

"Look Eren, I never intended to make you go through what your mother did. I was genuinely busy and I don't know if you'll believe me but all I thought about while I was away is how much I wanted to get back to you.

I truly love you Eren. I don't want to ever hurt or lose you! As for the communication I actually lost my phone... I know that sounds like a excuse but it isn't.

I'm actually surprised Mikasa was able to get in contact considering the circumstances but I'm happy she did and even if she didn't I was going to make my way back to you one way or another.

From the pained expression on his face and the shaking voice I feel my heart tug.

But I don't fall, I stand there arms crossed on top on my now bulging stomach and just stare at him.

I don't know if I even want him back at this point but I'd be lying if I said I didn't love him.

So with that train of thought I take a jump.

"Okay, IF I take you back there's going to be a lot of changes not just one or two I'm talking a whole 360.

Also I could care less if you apologize if this happens again if it does I'll walk away and never look back.

But as of right now I'll accept you just don't make me regret this Levi."

The look on his face speaks relief and the way he looks at me says I love you.

"Eren you don't know how happy I am that I just didn't lose you I'm not ever going to let you go and that why I want to do something that shows that I'm serious"

"I'm not having sex with you if that's what you mean."

Levi better tighten tf up!! I'm just saying seems to me like the old Eren is back and he ain't playing no games. *cough* watch your back Levi *cough*

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