Lovesick(MIW Imagines)

Lil Devil (Josh Balz x reader)

Y/N's p.o.v:

       You finished tying your hair with the (fav color)silk ribbon you found earlier and stood from the mirror, smiling at the wisps of (y/hc) hair framing your face. Tonight you would be going on a date with your brothers friend. Your brother was the lead singer of Motionless In White. His keyboardist Joshua Balz was very fond of you, admitting his feelings for you while you went on tour with them. Now that you were both back, Josh wanted to spend all his days with you.

A knock on your front door brought your attention back to why you were getting dressed up tonight.

A smile spread on your face when you sauntered out of your room and down the steps, heels clicking with each step. You opened the door to reveal Josh wearing a black dress shirt and pants, gauges in and sleeves rolled up below his elbows, grey eyes glowing under your porch light.

"Evening Ms. l/n." Josh chuckled while he wrapped you in a hug. "You look amazing."

You giggled a bit and smoothed out your dress. "And you too baby, you look so handsome tonight."

Josh laughed and took your hand, walking you down the steps to his car after you shut and locked your door. "I thought I was always handsome."

You sat in the passenger's seat and buckled in while Josh climbed in next to you. "You are, but I want to be a good girl for our date and not immediately start off with saying your sexy as fuck."

Josh leaned in to kiss my neck. "Don't worry, we can have you saying that by the end of the night if you'd like."

You blushed lightly while Josh began to drive. "I would like that."

Josh hummed while he drove. "We don't have to do anything if you don't want to. We can take things slowly since we already like each other."

You looked over while Josh stopped at a red light. "I wouldn't mind taking things slowly. I just recently broke up with James."

Josh squeezed your hand briefly before turning the corner. "I understand, and if you don't want to be in a relationship right now, I will wait until you feel you're ready to have one."

You bit your lip. Josh was a gentleman, caring and sweet and really funny. But you still had your doubts, you always had your doubts when you went on dates, but tonight those doubts seemed to fade a bit. Perhaps josh might be the right man for you in the long run.

"Y/N?"

You shook your head and turned to see Josh holding your door open, a gentle smile lacing his features. "We're here y/n, let me help you out."

You unbuckled your belt and took Josh's hand, a warm feeling spreading through your body while he pulled you up, walking you into the restaurant. You were seated at your table and picked up your menus, deciding what to order. After ordering you couldn't help but stare into Josh's eyes while he talked about events going on with him, the band, the shop.

Josh chuckled and tapped the table. "Y/n?"

You blinked and shook your head of your thoughts. "Yes Josh?"

Josh rubbed your hand while he thanked our server for the drinks. "You okay? You seem really nervous."

You nodded a bit, gripping his hand. "Yeah, I'm just anxious is all."

Josh caught your staggered breath, smiling while he kept rubbing your hand. "Feeling okay to eat?"

You nodded, sipping your (y/d.) "Yeah."

Josh leaned over the table to kiss your cheek. "Okay baby. You sure? I don't want you to feel forced to."

You nodded more confidently this time, rubbing the back of your neck while your server placed your plates down. "I'll be okay."

      Josh nodded, picking up his fork and starting his meal, smiling at you every now and then when he would see you take a bite. You had to admit to yourself, so far he was being super sweet and considerate. You were starting to feel better about dating again. You were so caught up in your thoughts you didn't notice Josh had been staring at you with a small grin on his face. You were confused for a moment, then looked down and saw your nearly empty plate.

"Y/n? You okay? You've been staring off a lot."

You shook your head, finishing the last of your food. "I'm okay."

Josh caressed my arm. "Just thinking?"

You nodded, sipping at your drink while you felt a bit of nausea build up.

Josh looked up from his water and gave you a concerned look. "Are you okay?"

You nod, fidgeting with the edge of the tablecloth. "So far, okay."

Josh gave you a kind smile. "I understand if you can't keep it down."

You nodded timidly, gripping his hand a little too tight. You were glad he understood your eating disorders. You probably would've been worse off if you didn't trust him.

Josh stroked your arm while the server came around with the check. "Its okay y/n, we'll be home soon."

You nod, grabbing your coat while Josh left a tip. You shook a bit from the cold while Josh helped you into the car, shutting the door and getting in quickly.

Josh held your hand, squeezing gently every now and then on the way back home. You were starting to become pale. Josh glanced over at you, pulling into your driveway while you unbuckled your belt.

He walked you to your door , watching you twitch a bit while you unlocked it. You really wanted him to stay, but were unsure of asking. You turned to Josh and sat down, snuggling into his side on the couch.

"J-josh?"

Josh quickly looked down at the sound of your voice, kissing your nose. "Yes baby?"

You starred shivering a bit, slowly starting to gag a bit. "C-can you stay here?"

Josh smiled and pulled me closer, rubbing my back to help calm me down. "Of course, I would love to stay with my angel."

You let out a soft chuckle, cuddling into Josh's side while he turned the TV on, starting up an evening of movies and cuddling and occasional making out.

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