Sweet🖤 (Book 1)

2. Collins

Why am I such a burden?

Why'd I have to be diagnosed with this shit?!

I just wanna be able to live my life...get high...drink with my friends!

But I can't fucking do that...or I'll die...

I just wanna have fun...what about college...that's in two years and I can't even be excited because I have to watch my breathing patterns ever darn minute...

"Collins!!" Karlie called from the kitchen

"what?!" I groaned slumping in my seat

She came out the kitchen confused.

"what's wrong?" She asked sitting beside me

I let out a breathe biting my lip.

"I wanna be able to go to parties without fainting...I wanna be able to get high and drink with my friends...that's all I want right now...what the hell?!"

"Cole...I know you want those things...I know you want the spectacular teen life but...that's not what the plan is anymore...ever since we found out this is what's happening life has been hard but...we push through...you gotta keep pushing through...I'm here to help you but...sometimes the things you want to do are not good for you and there's no cure for your condition yet so...there's nothing we can do...I'm sorry" she said rubbing her thumb across my wrist

I slumped down on my seat groaning.

"where are mom and dad?"I asked

"Work..." She said "Wesley, Lina, Marcus, and Chloe are coming over."

"What about Kelvin?"

"Mom and dad told you to stop being friends with him...he almost got you killed Collins"

"But he's my bestfriend..." I sat up

"He's dangerous...You could have died that night because of him...you don't need to be friends with him anyway...he's a bad influence"

"Ohh fuck you...Wesley does drugs!...he smokes almost every fucking day...but they didn't stop you!" I snapped

She just looked at me angrily

"What has gotten into you?" She asked

I just crossed my arms upset.

"We'll all just be in the guest house since you wanna be an asshole!...Everybody is trying to help you!...but you're so fucking difficult!...UGH!!! I wish are parents never met you fucking dickhead!!" She yelled before storming off upstairs

I sighed biting my lip.

I didn't mean to snap on her...I'm just upset...

I got up carefully as always and made my way upstairs to Karlie's room.

I walked in hearing sniffling and crying.

"Karlie are you crying?" I asked looking around seeing her pulling her knees to her chest

"No...get out" she sniffled wiping her nose

"Karlie I'm sorry I'm just...upset...I want to be a regular teenager..." I said sitting beside her

She just kept crying into her knees sniffling.

"I know Collins...I know but...until we find a actual cure...there's nothing...literally nothing we can do...you just gotta calm down a bit..." She said biting her lip

I sighed a bit nodding.

"You're right...when is everybody coming?"