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                         •America•

Today's the day.

We're leaving today .

Yes, today is the day .Whether I'll sleep through the whole flight or whether I'll jump off the plane ;no one knows.

For that stay tuned folks!

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                          ♡Europe ♡

Today is the day.

I finally got to walk through those halls ;not looking down at the ground, not looking at my wrist watch and most importantly not dreading every second of it. I walked in with my head held up high with Christie and her group by my side. For once in my life,I felt like I belonged here;I felt like I wasn't a mistake and I actually felt  was someone and that I shouldn't lose hope of that someone .

So here I was; laughing and walking and talking;God knows what else. All I know is that to ruin that precious moment my dumb-ass self, had to had to trip over my undone shoelaces. You might say it's just a trip, one damn trip; but for me,when you have everyone's eyes on you like you'RE the prima donna of that place. Well,it's like you went from fabulous to  hideous and honestly I don't blame them. I got to admit they do have a point and I do have a gigantic bruise on my forearm. Just because life can't get any better than that.

Now back to the story; besides that embarrassing chapter of the day there wasn't much to the rest of it except for the fact that people kept teasing me about it.

But who cares? My presence for once was actually acknowledged! Can I get a Hallelujah?

Aside from that all; I scanned the halls taking everything in and enjoying myself ; even though it was just a a long school corridor with random people in it.

The rest of my day wasn't that glamorous but I had fun  as it was the first time in two years that's I didn't seek refuge in the library.

It was the first time that I actually spoke up during class.

It was the first time that I actually looksd at myself in the mirror and was proud with what I saw.

Today was the day I found myself. 

Through those stupid little moments I discovered how truly amazing I am and how I shouldn't underestimate myself because  of what others think.

You shouldn't either.

So yes.

Today is the day.

Today is my day.

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                           •America•

Here's to 12 hours on a plane and to 12 hours of doing nothing.

I only hope I don't get noticed because I carry my guitar everywhere I go. Trust me I'm not some average musician with a broken family that writes his music to escape.

Actually...hold on... That's exactly what I am.

I just want to hide in the music room and not be pulled back into the famous club. I've been there and I've that. I'm not in it for the popularity but when you're at the top no one defies you and no one judges you. Guess that's why I've never walked away from it all.

Ok... wow.. that got deep.

Snap yourself out of it idiot.

Remember you have 12 hours of doing nothing don't waste them on useless thoughts.

We're going to Europe man.

Maybe this time we won't leave.

Maybe today is our day.