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April 24th | 2013

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April 24th | 2013

Dear Diary…

Does it bother you if I start calling you Journal? Because today Zayn was making fun of me because he saw me doodling some stuff on the cover of… Should I say on your covers? Whatever, and I told him that you were a journal because it sounds more… manly?

Ugh, never mind. Why am I talking to you anyway? (I talk to you almost daily, I’m so stupid sometimes)

Dear Journal,

The end of classes are going good so far, thanks God. We still have to take the final exams and I’m already studying for some of them. Next Friday I’m going to Liam’s because they want me to explain them some History stuff.  THAT EXAM IS GOING TO BE SUCH A PIECE OF CAKE. Don’t know why people don’t realize that the history of humanity is mostly the same sequence of events repeated a hundred million times in different situations with different people. But IT’S. THE. SAME. THING. I swear. (I love it so much though, do you think that maybe I could do a History Degree? Just for the sake of studying… ((This is why Zayn call me stupid.)))

Okay, let’s see… Oh yes. D’you remember that Nick invited me to hang out with his friends, the hipsters? (It’s so funny, I keep calling them like that and Nick just goes nuts I don’t really know well why, but I laugh so much with his reactions). Well, the thing is that I was kind of afraid of going on my own, social anxiety and stuff. But I really, REALLY wanted to go because they’re all “weirdos” like Nick and I, so I ask Gemma for advice and she told me that I should invite someone to go with me, to feel a bit more comfortable.

And that’s what I did. Louis and Liam were the lucky ones. (At first I thought Louis wouldn’t accept but it was such a relief when he said yes.)

Whatever, IT WAS AMAZING! We were around twenty people, I think? We spent the whole damn evening lying on Nick’s living room’s floor, listening to music (all the indie-artists-only-Nick-and-I-know according to Lou) and I even got to play some tunes with one of the lads’ guitar. Most  people left after dinner but Liam, Louis and I stayed and also two of Nick’s friends. Greg  and Cara, I think? They’re good lads, Greg is kind of… noisy? He reminds me a bit of Louis but in a bit more annoying version. I think he’s openly gay but I didn’t have the guts to ask him. And Cara is alright too, she’s quite interesting to be honest. Liam says she’s really hot but I don’t think so? I mean, of course she’s pretty but I don’t know, she didn’t call that much of my attention.

It was good. The whole day. The bitter side of it was that I came home “late” and mum was again kind of angry with me. But not yelling-at-you-angry, y’know? It was kind of passive-aggressive-angry and that is way more frustrating. Sometimes I wish she would just scream the things she does not like about myself so I could yell back at her something, anything.

Gemma’s not home tonight. I believe she said something about revising for some uni assignment but I’m pretty sure she’s with that new boyfriend of hers. She was brilliant that night. She sneaked into my room when mum had already gone to bed and we drank tea and talked about everything and anything until almost two in the morning. It was good. I love Gemma.

What else… I’m sure I’m forgetting something… Oh yeah…

Louis mentioned Eleanor today. Again.  He’s getting on my nerves.

I know, I’m exaggerating (and I’m definitely not jealous, not in the slightest. He’s my friend. FRIEND). But it’s kind of annoying? Like we all fucking know he’s been crushing over her for the past, what? Eight months? But I thought after the damn episode before going to our trip he would get over it. But it looks like he hasn’t and today after our Math exam (I’m sending a prayer to any God that wants to hear me to make some kind of miracle and make me pass that shit) he went on and on about how pretty she is and how sad he was she didn’t even waved at him when they bumped into each other on the bus. And so on. Annoying.

Liam says we just have to be patient with him. I say he has to get over it. But yeah…

I should probably go and finish my book, it’s SO good. I told you already, ‘bout Ireland and these people trying to destroy all these libraries all around the world… and oh, so good.

I’ll write soon, tomorrow I’ll probably be busy revising but I’ll try my best, okay?

 

Love, H.

 

[a/n] Hi, so so sorry for the delay. Uni got me like crazy, I'm still getting use to it. I just wanted to thank all the people that had added this book to their libraries and all the votes. And also: I know that in the UK you have all this GCSE's and A level's system but I don't understand it so well as for writing reaslitically about it on this story. So I'm just adapting the Argentinian education system because I can write about that. Thank you again so much. 

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