Book 1: Nowhere boys and their Nowhere girl

Chapter 4

Chapter 4: Kissing, shopping and partial confessions… wait WHAT?

Felix’s P.O.V

Wait, what the hell did she mean by; she had to make sure I was real? Of course I’m real? Am I? I held onto her shoulders,

“What the hell do you mean? Explain, NOW,” I put her down in shame,

“I wish I could, but there are something’s that I’m not allowed to explain, things right now, and things in the future. But I swear, I wish I could tell you but...”

“Tell him,” Phoebe interrupted Blake,

“WHAT? PHOEBE? YOU KNOW I CANT,” I sat on the sidelines, watching the two girls, bicker like sisters. Weirdness.

“I can’t tell him Phoebe, it could hurt everyone!”

“Fine,” wait what?

“Just becau... wait you said what now?” Phoebe nodded,

“I said fine, but the only way you can save yourself right now is if you kiss him,” my eyes widened, both me and Blake yelled,

“WHAT?” Phoebe rolled her eyes; making me think that she was thinking we were stupid,

“Blake, I just realized something, you don’t have to tell him, you can just kiss him,” what the hell?

“...” fuck.

Blake’s P.O.V

What difference would it make it if I was to kiss Felix, I mean, he doesn’t want to kiss me, not even my own mother wanted to kiss me. I looked to Felix to see him already staring at me; we both looked at Phoebe,

“WHY WOULD HE/SHE WANT TO KISS ME?” we both said it at the same time, awkward. Phoebe grimaced,

“Yeah, I’m just going to go outside and do... something, and leave you two to talk. Oh Mia your here, here, come with me,” she started to apologize to Mia as they left, when I heard the bell go off, signalling that they were now outside. Felix spoke first; I was too scared to,

“So, you don’t want me to kiss you? Do you?” I opened my mouth to speak, but cut myself off, what am I supposed to say, 'I’m deeply in love with you and don’t care if you kiss me!', yeah, sorry but no, as if I’m going to say that.

We spent a good ten minutes sitting there in silence, it gave me time to know what to say, and it was the lamest thing I have ever said,

“Look, I know you don’t want to do this, but let’s just get it over and done with, yeah?” I tried to pulled a smile, but it didn’t happen, Felix frowned at my words,

“Yeah, sure, let’s just do that,” we moved closer to each other, I didn’t want to do this to him, my hood was still up so he didn’t have to see my face, he didn’t have to see that I was crying, he didn’t have to see how ugly I was,

“Just picture me as someone you’re really like, and I’ll do the same,” he nodded and as he nodded our lips touched, but it wasn’t a proper kiss yet. Oh god, I hope this doesn’t annoy him. Finally, our lips touched properly. Wow, his lips were so soft, he tasted wonderful, I moved closer to him and he wrapped his arms around my waist, while I wrapped my arms around his neck. As soon as I did that, he pulled me onto his lap.

We sat there, with me on his lap, gently kissing, then, I felt like I was punched in the stomach, but it was a good feeling, it made me want more of  Felix, god I hope he doesn’t hate me for this. I opened my mouth, and with my arms, pulled his head closer to me, one of his arms wrapped tighter around my waist while the other one came to pull my hood off, I winced at that, god I hope his is thinking of someone good, I’m actually thinking of him, he must be thinking of Ellen or something.