I have always wondered how my life could have turned out if I wasn't so scared of everything. I've wondered what would have happened if I took risks and actually attempted to socialize. Or if I hadn't gotten involved with certain people. Would I be happier? I wonder if I had held his hand the first time we had hanged out together or responded with better words that he would have thought higher of me. Would things have worked out? Perhaps if I hadn't said certain things or had said certain things I would have been happier. I am filled with regret that I cannot change. Would I have been happier?
