so let me just give you a glimps of who i am. im a junior in high school and just turned 17. im basically in love with this girl but she is miles away and its nearly impossible for us to be together but thats really taken a toll on just my physical wellbeing. so yesterday i was with this guy and long story short he took my virginity and on the drive back home i was by myself in my car and i had the clearest thought just circulating in my brain 'i lost it to the wrong person'
and now im here, laying in bed with facetime opend on my phone talking to the actual love of my life while the guy who earlier today said that he is falling in love with me is trying to get me to call him. tommorow he said that he is going to take me on this date to a resturant and then we are gonna go see this movie and to be completely honest the only person i want to do that with is with this girl and the other side of texas.
i told her what was happening and i started to tear up because i have to hurt one of them and i know i already hurt the girl i love with telling her this but its also going to crush this boy. he is more sensitive than i thought which definitly took me by surpise but i mean i guess ya know.
"have you peed?!?!?!?" -L. she legit just asked me this the was like "ill explain in person" so idk what that means but im excited and she said that she has this surprise for me but im pretty sure that is is just like abox but idk because she keeps talking about how much time and effort and money shes gonna have to put into it and that shes gonna send it just randomly and ill probably forget about it. so like its chillin but hopefully she just sends herself because thats all i want, and one of her hoodies because duh
okay so yeah this is the first of many but if you have any advice of just wanna say hey you can leave a comment or message me or both or none really its up to you but yeah see yall later.
*yall im so sorry but proper punctuation is probably never going to show up in these but i swear i know how to use apostophies
**also i know for the most part how to spell but it doesnt show which words are incorrect on the laptop so if you have problems with spelling errors yikes
