Always You

Chapter 3

I imagine Ryan as Daniel Sharman. You might view him differently but that's just how I pictured him in my head! :)

Disclaimer: you can picture the characters differently but I'll probably be giving my views on the characters throughout the story Xx

Chapter 3:

People say a lot about high school: It's the happiest time of your life or it's the worst place in the world. 

I personally don't care much for high school, but it's not like I'm going to complain that it's like prison each day I open those glass doors at the front entrance. It's only four years out of your long life, well for some people at least.

Most people in high school worry about their hair, their reputation, their grades. It's all just a load of bullshit. No one is going to matter to each other after high school. We're just stuck in a school full of oblivious kids for four years and then we all lead separate lives with people we're supposed to fit in with. The cliques, the grades, the reputation: hate to break it to you, but it's all bullshit. 

Don't act like woe-is-me, end-of-the-world, school-is-ruining-everything shit is real life. After high school ends is the beginning of the real world. You're not going to be young and naive forever.

College is a whole other story.

Senior year, you're supposed to decide which colleges you want to apply to, how you're going to live, and what you're supposed to do with your life. But the thing is, the decision that naive seventeen year old kids make may not be the best. They could choose their path, go to college, get a degree and eventually a job, and then decide in their mid forties that they didn't want to have three kids and live in the same, boring suburban neighborhood they grew up in. They really wanted to be an author, or a marine biologist, or hell, they even wanted to be a stripper.

So then their life falls apart. They're unhappy with sitting in a hot office for hours on end each day. Their spouse bores the shit out of them, they realize they've married the wrong person. They end up divorcing that person which leads to court dates and fighting: Who will get custody of the kids? What about child support?

So then this sad, forty-something suburban parent can do two things: quit their job, thousands of dollars from college thrown down the drain in an instant. Or they can deal with the constant agony that they made the wrong decision in high school, leading them to this boring life. 

Life sucks and then you die.

Some may call me a pessimistic, but I'm really just a realist. That's the sad reality of life whether you'd like to believe it or not. You're lucky if the something that sparks your interest now continues to do so throughout the rest of your life. 

You're lucky if you make it out happy in the end. 

The pressure to make a decision about what you want to do with your life is overwhelming. Everyone in senior year is in a state of panic despite the act that everything is all, 'It's senior year let's party.' Everyone's being pressured about college and are probably want to pull their hair out, which includes me.

All I want to do is be happy in life. I have no clue what I want to be, but for now I just want to live through high school and then follow wherever the wind takes me. I don't want to end up like half the parents who put on a fake smile in this town, I want to end up with a good life.

I don't want to choose my path, I want it to choose me.

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"Come on Jade, we have to go! It's going to be the biggest party of the summer and now that preseason is over we don't have to worry about waking up early." Camila says as she struggles to choose an outfit. I watch as she holds up a black crop top to her chest before scowling and throwing it in the pile of clothes on the floor.