What are people doing nowadays ?
And, shall we ask about what are they doing, or what are they not doing; it seems pretty complicated. They say that there's no life without love.. but they forgot.. they forgot that people's hearts are full of hate, arrogance, authoritarianism... and the list is still long.
Unfortunately mine too, mine too is just like theirs, sometimes I don't get myself, I start thinking about my own purposes without thinking of others.. and if I'm ,without a doubt, thinking of them as a tool or means through my goals. I can take advantage of people for like every second in my life, and you ,the reader, you can too; can't you?
When I was a child all I can remember is when I was dreaming about growing up, being a lady with no recommends, being able to wear high heels and putting make up as much as I can ,even that attractive bloody red lipstick, just by growing up I found that life worth nothing, it's nothing but a misery; it's not about being attractive from outside, your outside can be fixed up ; your inside cannot.
When you're single ... walking at night and staring up, at the sky's stars and you just enjoy how do they look as much as the lovers do.. you start taking deep fresh air and thinking about positive things and ambitions , you even can start thinking about conquering the world... just as Siruis had conquered the look of the night, and defeated all the stars up there. Then you take a look at moon; until your eyes start hurting as well as your neck, from holding your head high,Just by a simple quite silent touch of the night air , the pure side of your soul comes out, and you remember that day , one of summer's days, when you held you head up in the sky and you saw almost the whole brilliant milky way, you draw that picture again in the sky by your eyes, until you believe yourself , that you're seeing it again, you start realizing that's your nothing in this world, but a small shape. Just like everyone else!
"It is grotty, isn't it?"- You start whispering inside of you, having flashbacks of all what you have done before, regrets and remords are killing you at the same time. You take another deep breath ,but this one is different from the first one.. you cry it all away , your cheeks get wet and your eyes are miserably looking...
