Through my Eyes

11: Going back

It has been three months now. I have been gone for three months.  It hits me hard knowing I have been away from the pack, my friends and possible mate, to live in a cave and bathe in the river I also drink from. I saw papers up on poles and trees with my face on them. I had to dye my hair from a light red color to a midnight blue that was practically black. I also got contacts and glasses, making my eyes change from a bright blue to a dark brown and brimming the new eyes was bright silver glasses. I looked like a different person enough so I didn't get any looks or questions so I say that I won the war for that one. 

I  saw the boys in the woods awhile ago, the day I left actually. Alec was there first, at the river. He had stopped to cool off. Then Darron had come out of the woods and started to scream my name and stopped once he saw Alec. They start to talk to each other but I couldn't hear them. After about five minutes of this Darron pinned Alec to the nearest tree by his throat. I screamed, they saw me. I ran after that and I lost them. They didn't follow me anyway.

After that I made my way to the cave that I am now gathering my stuff up from. "Lets go home." I'm saying that to myself mostly but also to my wolf.  So after my things are packed up, by things I mean an outfit and a blanket that I wrapped around it and stabbed with a stick, and tread out of the cave under the moonlight. 

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Once I see the pack house I can sense the tension and worry in the air.  "Damn it! She can't be gone! She isn't gone Dad!" Darron's screams of agony resonate from the house and are followed by silence. "She can't be gone Alpha. That body we found didn't have her scent! She isn't gone!" Alec's passionate yell chimes in. A bomb of pain explodes in my chest, guilt.  I do the most dramatic thing possible because it is the only thing that comes to my mind at this time and drop my stuff as I start my sprint into the house.

The door slams behind me and the conversation cuts off.  "Who are you and why are you barging into a meeting?" Alpha Derick booms. I don't say anything, instead I take my hair down, take off the glasses and with them go the contacts. "I'm sorry I caused this much pain and trouble. I just wanted to think. . ." I can't finish my sentence because I am wrapped up by Alec's arms, "I am so fucking sorry I hurt you Dizzy. I am so fucking sorry.  I shouldn't of done what I had," he whispers.  I wrap my legs and arms around him in fear of him dropping me, "You never hurt me, I have depression. It is always that effecting me." He puts me down and I look at him, he as a large smile but he has a tear rolling down his cheek too.  

"What the actual fuck are you thinking hugging my Deseray! We discussed this. She is mine!  Get your shit covered hands away from her." Darron curses and attempts to grab me. My hand collides with his cheek and I let my little rant out. 

"I am not yours. I will never be yours. You never helped me when I needed it. You never helped me out a all. You don't care about me. You are rude and mean and a terrible person. You may be hot and that blinded me but you are NOT a person I want to be with! I saw you guys that day in the woods. You almost killed him and he never did anything wrong to me! He was always there and he always wanted to be but I pushed him away. I hate you! I went into the woods to think about my life and about how I am now. When he was here with me I was HAPPY! When you are here with me i feel as if you are using me and I can't fucking handle it anymore Darry! I can't handle YOU!" 

I Walk up the stairs with my eyes watery, cheeks tear stricken and my throat on fire. I walk upstairs with dignity and with hope but also with sadness and pain.

(Future me and I honestly am laughing so hard. I tried to be dramatic but its so cringy lol)

So how was this chapter? I made it extra long and I typed it pretty fast so her rant has mistakes and I already know this! I hope that you like the plot twist and drama because there will be more to come!