demons. a cryaotic x reader fanfic (DISCONTINUED)

Ryan? why..

Ryan went down the stairs and I stood there in awe. I didn't know what to think or to say. I can't hardly remember anything from when I met Felix but some how I don't doubt that something happened. I covered my mouth and nose trying to keep the smell from entering my body in anyway it smelt so disgusting. I made my way down the stairs slowly and into the kitchen. I saw Ryan standing there, he looked normal for once. He didn't have that evil look in his eyes and he didn't look like he wanted to murder everything he saw. He look beautiful, he was a beautiful man but I never really got the chance to deal with the real him. I walked over to him and grasped his hand. He looked down at me and smiled. He actually smiled. "What's wrong (Y/n)?" His voice was soft and calming. He genuinely looked happy. "Ryan.." shortly after I smiled back his facial expression changed and he yanked his hand away. "Why are you fucking touching me? I didn't tell you too" I frowned and smacked him. "why the fuck can't you just stay you..." My hands started to shake and he snapped his head back to look at me. He grabbed me up by my throat and then let me go. "I'm sorry Love" Ryan's eyes were blue again. He touched my stomach lightly and smiled. " I wan't to believe it's mine, I know it's mine..it has to be" He bites his lip and kisses my head. "I love you, and after all this after all this after how much I hurt you I wanna say sorry." I started to cry right there and then. "We need to get out of here" he took me by the hand and led me to 'his' car, it was nothing special but it seemed to have been stolen because Ryan sure as hell didn't own a car like this. He helped me in and then ran over to his side of the car and quickly drove off. "why are you doing this?" I wiped my tears away and looked at him. He kept his eyes on the road and didn't really say anything. He looked like he was holding back tears or maybe holding back and urge. His face was pale and he didn't move his eyes from off the road but started to speak softly. "I'm going to try and get you back to mark, I cannot hold mad off for long. Once you're with mark and they take me into custody we'll be okay and i'll be back one day for you and our baby. 'our'  I don't know why but right there and then I wanted to cry. Just something about him saying the the baby was his too actually gave me joy. I wanted this side of Ryan all the time but I know that he cannot control what goes on sadly. Honestly I still don't know if I understand whats going on. Am I going crazy? I honestly don't even know who I am anymore or what i've become. I never really wanted to be a mother. I don't want to lose this baby either but i'm afraid something is going to happen to it or to me. The fact I really didn't know who's baby it was or even what day it was, was fucking with my head.  "What day is it?" you could hear him swallow harshly. "June 8th 2017" My eyes widened and I shook my head. There is no way I was at Mary and ken's house for over a year. The last time I remember it was may of 2016..when I was with..Felix. At least thats what the letters I was getting from him said. I look out the window and feel the tears stain my cheek once again. The trees and surroundings are going by fast as Ryan gets on the freeway. I start getting tired and dizzy and pass out. 

~Time skip, now in Florida~ 

I woke up with the sun in my eyes and Ryan still looking at the road not moving his gaze even with how tired he looks. I fix my seating and place my hands on my stomach; feeling the little kicks from my- No our child. I giggle softly to myself. "We're almost there (y/n)" his voice sent shivers down my spine, There was always something from the beginning that made me feel so welcome in his presence when he was himself. I hated 'mad' and I always will he took my innocence and he changed someone I could have had forever into something that is now just another temporary thing in this world. "When you're with mark I want you to let him know everything I did, let the cops know too. I need to be put somewhere, where I can't hurt you or our baby." I looked at him like he was the most stupidest thing I had ever seen. "are you crazy??!! I can't do that! do you know how long they'll put you away for! I don't wan-" "(Y/N)! s-stop..I know you don't want to because of the baby but you have to, if you don't I have no clue what i'm going to do to you both. I love you to much to put you through that. I don't even know if you want to kee-" Now it was my turn to cut him off. "I want the baby. I don't care what anyone else says this baby is OURS and it's what I want. It lets me know I didn't go through all this for no reason" I slam my hand on the console of the car and he jumped slightly. I looked out the door to notice we were nothing but a block away from Mark, a block away from the new hell I have to struggle through. I'm scared...

Ryans P.O.V 

Me and (Y/N) had just gone silent after a small fight we had. We where coming up on Marks street and I could see the nervousness in her eyes. I love her I really do and whats happened after all this has made me fall more in love with her. I guess you can say craziness is the key to love in my situation. I don't know how i've been able to keep mad locked away for so long. Honestly I feel like this is a bad thing. This all should have never happened and I should have just let Felix take care of me the first time I met him. I pulled onto Marks road and you could see the cops from a block away. As we got closer the cops surrounded us and (y/n) looked at me in fear. I didn't want this to scare her in anyway. I wanted this to make her safe. "Goodbye my love" I stopped the car and took the keys out the ignition and kissed her goodbye. The cops pulled open our doors and dragged me out and I let them without any hesitation. They noticed (y/n) was pregnant and helped her out carefully. She yelled and screamed my name as the shoved me up against the front of my stolen car to check and see what was in my pockets, I had nothing but a pocket knife on me in that moment. I bit my lip and twitched lightly. "fuck" I said blandly and looked up and 

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