𝐒𝐎𝐌𝐄 𝐍𝐈𝐆𝐇𝐓𝐒 → 𝐉𝐎𝐄 𝐊𝐄𝐄𝐑𝐘

epilouge.

"WE ARE GATHERED HERE TODAY, TO REMEMBER THE LIFE OF THE BELOVED FANNA GARLAND."

Family and friends, watched as Fanna's motionless body laid in the casket. A year after Fanna and Joe broke up, she got addicted to drugs. Just like every sad adult, they find someway to cope with the sadness. Sometimes, it leads you to awful places.

Her best friend Juliet cried and weeped in the front row, as she glanced at her now dead best friend. She was the one who found her, laying down her bed face first. A bottle of Xanax next to her, and her lips blue. This was going to haunt her for the rest of her life.

"She was loved by many, she was hated by many. But in the end, she made people laugh. She made people smile, she made people cry." The priest said. Joe sat in the crowd, right next to Charlie and Dacre. He looked down at his lap, crying quietly. He never got the chance to say goodbye to her. He never got the chance to see her. This was his fault. The fact that he was the cause of her death, broke him. He couldn't even face her parents.

But, he couldn't be ashamed of crying. Because everybody who was there was. A mother no longer had a daughter, a sister no longer had a sibling, a fan no longer had an icon, a person no longer had a friend, a boy no longer had the girl he loved.

"But, we remember Fanna Marie Garland in a special way." The priest spoke. Joe's mind flew with memories of him and Fanna when they were just kids, playing in her parents backyard. He remembers the time where they danced at prom. He remembers that moment where she won a Golden Globe. He wished that he could be there. Or he could've changed stuff around.

People were giving their speeches about Fanna, which only made everybody cry harder. An amazing person like Fanna did NOT deserve a death like this. She deserved to live a long and happy life.

Prayers were said and emotions were spreading through the room like a wildfire. The funeral was over. This was the way to tell everyone, this wasn't a dream. This was real.

As everyone went to leave the church, Joe stayed behind. He walked over to the casket, seeing Fanna's lifeless body. She wore a black dress, she still had her favorite charm bracelet on. It's like she was still alive somehow. She didn't change since the last time he saw her.

"Oh Fan," He whispered as he started to cry. He kneeled down to the casket, looking at the corpse. "I'm sorry. I'm sorry I let this happen to you."

If only Fanna was here right now. He knew he could make it right. He knew that she could still be alive. "Fan, I'm in love with you. I'll always be in love with you." He cried. "You're my best friend, you're the love of my life. Please come back to me,"

But you can't love somebody back to life. Joe only wishes he could though. He wished all of this was just a nightmare, that he was going to wake up and realize that Fanna is still alive.

"Aw Joe," He heard someone say behind him. He jumped slightly and wiped his eyes, turning around to see Fanna's parents. The two of them were like other parents to Joe, even though he broke their daughters heart. He still brought joy and laughter to it.

"Mr. and Mrs. Garland, I'm sorry. I should get going. I just wanted to say goodbye–"

"Joe, it's okay. It's okay." Her mother said, giving him a hug. That's when Joe lost it, and started hysterically crying into her mother's arms.

"This is my fault, this is all my fault. I'm so sorry," He cried.

"No, it was not your fault Joe." Fanna's mother cried along with him. "After you two broke up, she was in love with you. She was just hurting."

"But, I could've stopped it. I could've made everything better." He cried. That's when the two parents held onto Joe as he just cried and cried. After what felt like ages, they pulled away and her father held him an envelope.

"Juliet found this on her nightstand the night she died. It's for you." Her father told him. Joe's eyes widened and he took it.

"Thank you for giving the best to our daughter." Fanna's mom smiled. "She loved you."

She squeezed his shoulders and his dad gave him a nod, before both parents walked out of the church. He sat down on bench and ripped the envelope open. He unfolded it, and slowly started to read.

Joe,

It's been a year since we haven't been together. I know the truth, I know you were telling the truth after all. But, it's too late. I'm a mess. I'm a hurricane. You don't deserve someone like me.

As I enjoy some of my last and final moments on this earth, I'm writing my suicide note to you. The love of my life. Our story started out with a happy beginning, but not like most stories... we did not have a happy ending. I always imagined having kids with you, I always imagined getting married with you and spending our honeymoon somewhere wild like Australia. But, I guess life had different plans. Now you can do that with someone else.

I'm not saying you have to forget me. No, I never want you to forget me. Because my heart would be broken if you did. But I do not want you spending your life grieving over me. Life is adventure. Your story does not end. I want you to get married, I want you to have kids. I want you happy. I don't care if that's not what you want. That's what I want.

You're smart, and you're kind. You never deserved someone like me. A crazy, sad. Piece of nothing. None of this is your fault Joey. Life just didn't work out for me. And that's okay. I'm watching over you now. If you still want to tell me jokes, just look up at the stars. I'll the brightest one, and just know. I'll be listening. When the wind blows hard while you're taking a late night walk. That'll be me. Please don't let our break up break you down. It's okay. But just know. I love you. I love you, and I always will. You're my best friend. And I'll never ever forget you. Thank you for giving me an amazing life, even though it didn't seem like it. You are loved.

Love,
Fanna.

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THATS THE END. MY FIRST NOVEL ON WATTPAD IS FINISHED. WOW I DID THAT. ALSO, THIS CHAPTER MADE ME CRY. THANK YOU ALL FOR READING THIS AND SUPPORTING THIS BOOK! I LOVE YOU ALL!