I'm right here....

Chapter 4

Mariska POV

Danny arrives shortly after nine, and I drive to get Kelli at the precinct. When I arrive Kelli kisses me on the spot, but I know something isn't right. "My love, what's wrong? You don't seem right" I question, pulling her into my office and straddling her.

"Nothing is wrong Miska, I'm fine! " she says, slightly raising her voice and getting teary eyes.
I notice her antics and pull her in to a deep hug, "Sweetie, just tell me what's bothering you" I say gently hoping she will tell because I hate seeing her like this. She laughs nervously and takes a deep breath before answering " it's the stupid appointment later, I'm so nervous for what's going to go on that I'm shaking. Miska what do I do? " she babbles nervously as we start heading to the car to go.

"Your part in this is simple baby" I soothe, rubbing her back as we get closer to the car, " You just be you, listen to the doctor and if anything comes up I will be there to comfort you, and let you hold my hand and squeeze it as long as you need." She nuzzles to my chest and nods as I start to drive to the clinic. When we arrive and get checked in, she meekly squeezes my hand. As they call us back I whisper " you can do this" in her ear and squeeze her hand in support. We get in the exam room and Joanna the nurse instructs Kelli to undress to her tank but leave her sweats on, at this she blushes extremely hard and her nervous laugh surfaces as she does what the nurse says.

Only after she is nearly exposed does she ask why, and what Joanna says sends her tumbling into a fit of nervousness and agitation.
"I had you undress for two reasons, one being it will be easier to give you your vaccines and the other being it will be easier to get your exam done." Kelli looks from me to Joanna, and back again, blushes, but obliges. Soon Joanna tells Kelli to hold my hand and try to relax. Again Kelli blushes as some nervous whimpers escape her mouth, "Baby, it's gonna be fine, just a little stick and it'll be done"

I soothe as Joanna assembles the first of the injections before wiping Kelly's arm with an alcohol pad. As the needle punctures her skin Kelli softly cries out and anxiously reaches for my hand, her eyes filling with tears. "Shh Shh Shh Shh baby" I soothe softly as I wipe her tears that continue to fall. Joanna plasters a bandage on the first needle mark and moves to the next one. Kelli freezes, burrowing into me while she tries to delay the incoming stick.

"S-Stop t-treating m-me like a Ch-child Riska, I can handle a few n-n-n-needles" Kelli stutters, voice softening at the word "needles" like it does when she is terrified of something. I sigh softly and ruffle her hair before kissing her softly, she smiles and I straddle her knowing it will keep her still.

"Honey remember that you always freak with needles, I'm doing all of this out of experience. I know how you act, and I am not treating you any different than I usually do."
Joanna smiles sympathetically as I pat Kelli on the back trying to stop her protests. Joanna stands firmly in waiting "You'll be okay Kelli, just a little stick and then it'll be over. Hold Mariska's hand and count to three okay?"

Kelli shakes her head continuing to pout and protest while having a death grip on my hand. "Hush my love, let the nice nurse do what she needs to do yeah? If you do well I have a reward waiting when we get home" I say, ever so slightly in a seducing tone. Kelli smiles softly, tears running down her flushed face. "Now You're treating me like a kid, stop it!"

"You're doing so well my darling, only two more" I tease gently, holding her hand as the alcohol is applied to her arm again.  Joanna starts to approach Kelli with the injection, and I can see the panic well up in her baby blue eyes. I try to distract her "So what do you want as a reward lovely? A tub of ice cream that is exclusively yours? A new book.... A new movie....... Something else....... Some hot hot sex?"

She blushes a deep shade of crimson and swats away my hand as I snake my arms around her and whispers bashfully, " Miska..... Not here!! You're t-turning me on." I pull her in for a kiss, and turn her eyes on me.
The whimpering mess I call my wife soon is in tears and grabbing desperately for my hand. After the nurse successfully administers the second needle, she falls apart.

"Nooo!" The tears make it hard for me to understand exactly what she is saying but I know she needs my touch, so I tuck her hair behind her ear softly and kiss her forehead.

Kelli sits up, tears streaming down her face. "Miska... Don't let her"

"Baby just one more, then you can pick your reward." I say, attempting to soothe her.

I praise, taking her hand in mine and kissing her forehead. The nurse gives Kelli the shot and she whimpers softly, nuzzling into my shoulder, her hand squeezing mine tightly.

"All done baby, all done. Now we just have to get your mammogram quick. And don't worry, I'll be there" I say, slightly in a seductive tone. The nurse exits, going to reserve the mammogram machine.

"Mariska?" She whispers nervously in my ear, " yes baby?" I respond "What if something's wrong?" She asks, fiddling with her hands.

"Honey unless there is something you didn't tell me or the nurse at the start, then nothing is wrong." She tips her head down, looking at me.

"Babe" I question, feeling my cop instincts kick in. "Is something wrong?"

Kelli tears up, "Miska I'm not sure, I just get anxious about these things..."

A thousand questions flood my mind, but instead I wrap my wife in a tight hug and let her cry on my shoulder whilst I comfort her.

Joanna comes back after about ten minutes and leads us to the room with the mammogram machine. I kiss Kelli one last time before stepping into the protective barrier and waiting to see the results.

At the end of the procedure as she hangs together by threads I can tell she wants nothing more than to go home and be with the ones who love her most. Kelli practically falls into my arms and bawls when we reach the other side of the double doors leading to the parking lot.

"Ohhh my love.... Shhhhhhh" I stroke her soft blonde hair and let her cry into me.

"You did it honey.... All done. No more pokes and no more uncomfortable tests... Plus, if it means anything you get to drag me to this in a month and do the exact thing I am doing to you..." Kelli smiles, hugging me tight before reaching up and kissing me passionately. "And don't worry, I'll bring along my headset so you can try and relax. Okay?" I hate when she teases me over my issue with needles, but at the same time if it makes her feel better in this situation I am all for it.

"Baby, don't tease me..." I pout, sticking my bottom lip out and burrowing into her shoulder.
She laughs, and pulls me up "Alright Alright I won't, but can we go home now? I'm starving!"