I don't believe in the term "you have to love yourself before you can love anyone else". First of all, I am diagnosed with major depression and I despise myself to bits but I know for certain I love my mother and I love my father. I know for certain I love Dayana and Chris. I don't need society to tell me otherwise. I know I love Aidan very much, I don't need to love myself to know that. A Chinese person doesn't need to love China to be able to love France. I understand the "if you can't love yourself you don't know what love is" bit and where it comes from, but no one can force you to love yourself just to prove you love someone else. I am a person capable of loving and hating even if I don't love myself. I'm not sure if I do. But I know I love Aidan because if anything he helps me love me. Sometimes I think I'm disdainful and then sometimes I think I'm okay and then sometimes he makes me feel perfect. I love him to pieces, I love his flaws, every bad and good bit of him, when he's crying, when he's angry, when he's anxious, when he's happy, I love every bit of him and I don't need a pompous society to tell me otherwise because what I do know is that all that matters is that we both turn out better in the end than we were in the beginning and I'm happy and maybe I'll get around to loving myself, maybe, but self deprivation of love doesn't border you from any other capabilities.
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ŞiirA series of small works: finished works and unfinished scraps and sober thoughts and inebriated words and drunk minds and me. All of me in here.