He Hates Me

Chapter 5: Drowned

(Xiara's POV)

Days passed by like a blur. Mom, Dad and Kuya will really travel to London after this school year. Tuloy talaga sila. And I'll be left alone. Parang ang lungkot naman ng summer 'pag ganun. Maybe, I'll just go out oftentimes, then. Or mag-sleepover party kaming apat sa bahay nila Shane at Leigh. That will be fun. Pero mamimiss ko talaga si Kuya Dark. And I can't deny that fact. Wala na kasi akong aasarin kapag tungkol kay Shane.

"You okay, bitch?" Tanong sakin ni Leigh.

Nandito kasi kami ngayon sa pool area ng school namin. But don't get me wrong, I'm not taking swimming lessons. Wala akong hilig sa paglangoy. And to be honest, hindi ako marunong lumangoy. Sinasamahan lang namin si Hailey dahil practice nila ngayon kaya naiwan kami ni Leigh dito sa may bench while Shane buys foods for us.

"Hmm." Sabay tango ko.

"Tulala ka. There's something wrong, for sure. Now, tell me. What is it?" Usisa niya pa.

Hayys. Guess, I can't lie to her.

"Mom and Dad will be leaving to London. And sasama si Kuya Dark. So I'll be left alone on summer. Ang lungkot kaya nun." I explained.

Her expression turned confused.

"But why would Kuya Dark go with them? Diba, hindi naman siya mahilig sa mga out-of-country thingy na yan? And I thought may appointment siya every summer? Oh god. Kailangan ko itong sabihin kay Twinnie."

"Yeah. Pero mismo ako hindi ko alam kung ano talaga ang appointment niya every summer eh. Ewan ko. Maybe nauumay na siya sa Pilipinas." Sabi ko nalang.

Wala kasi akong maisip na ibang rason. Baka naiirita na siya sa pang-aasar ko sakanya kay Shane? Ano siya? Pikon? But I know, hindi siya ganun kababaw. Seriously, Kuya? You're making my head ache. What's gotten into you and you decided to leave the country even though it means leaving me and ..of course, Shane.

"She got the racks and all, Cal. Why would you reject her?"

Umalingawngaw ang boses ni Vance sa loob ng swimming area. I turned around and saw him with Calisther. From what I see, seems like hindi naman siya sasali sa swimming lesson. Maybe sinasamahan niya lang din si Calisther. Calisther is known in our school as a great swimmer. He had won several swimming competitions at uuwi talaga siyang champion.

I looked at Vance at nang nakita ko siyang nakatitig na rin sakin habang nakakunot ang noo, umayos ako ng upo. I diverted my gaze at tsaka tumikhim.

"Ba't ang tagal ni Twinnie? Bitch, sundan na kaya natin sa canteen." I saw her worried look kaya tumango nalang ako.

I stood up at naglakad papunta sa exit but before I could finally leave, someone grabbed my hand.

"Saan ka pupunta?"

My brows creased. What is it to him? Pake niya ba? I tugged my hand against his grip. At lalampasan na sana siya ngunit bigla niyang hinarangan ang dinadaanan ko. I looked at Hailey and signalled her to wait for me. She just nodded. Nakita ko ang seryosong titig sakin ni Cal. But I shrugged it off at tiningnan ng diretso sa mata ang lalakeng nasa harap ko ngayon.

"What is it now, Vance?" I lazily asked.

Pagod na ako. Pagod na ako sa mga pa-fall niyang galawan. He's being possessive again. Kung noon nasisiyahan ako kapag nagkakaganito siya, ngayon hindi na. Wala na akong balak pang kunsintehin ang nararamdaman ko para sa kanya.

Maybe there will always be a time when you'll get tired of your shitty feelings or rather, you'll get tired of having feelings for someone you can't have.