《THE COUNT》

letters

Justin sat a desk that belonged to his family for many years.
He sat quietly,
thinking of words to write.
He could not think of anything.
How could he write at this moment?
Everything was changing in just moments.

Justin had fallen in love with another man,
out of love with Andrey.
A man that Justin had been with for a long time,
he was the comfort of Andrey’s life.
It was not surprising that they had gotten together.

Andrey was married to a woman before he met Justin.
Justin was only a child.
Andrey was married to the woman for a few short years.
She got pregnant and died giving birth.
She gave birth to a son named Nicholas.
Months before Andrey met Justin,
the baby died.

Andrey was desperate and alone.
Justin made his life better,
they fell in love immediately.
He completely forgot about Boris,
who he planned to marry.
Andrey became Justin’s world.
They became a great couple.

Now, a year later.
It was demolished.
It was demolished by a man he had barely known.
It was love at first sight.
Justin did not know much about Zayn as much as Andrey.
The love was too great to ignore.

Justin held up his pen,
he looked at the blank piece of paper.
He sighed, wanting to cry.

“Dear Andrey…”
Justin set the pen down the pen.
He rubbed his forehead,
what more could he write?
What could he write after all that had just happened?
He could not decide.
He could not figure out to explain how to describe the situation.
What was he to do when he loves him and the other one too?
Justin didn’t know if he must break it off.

Justin thought about the candle in the mirror.
There was not a vision of the future.
He felt lost and alone.
Justin looked at the unread letters on his desk.
He saw one from Princess Mary.
He quickly pushed away the letter to Andrey,
he started to read the letter.

“Dear Justin,
I am very sorry for what has happened.
I am in deep despair at the misunderstanding between us two.
I’m very sorry for what my father has said.
Or whatever my father’s feeling may be.
I beg on my knees, I beg you to believe,
that I cannot help but help loving you.
My father is a tired old man,
and must be forgiven.
Please come see us again soon.”

Justin sighed,
feeling tears trickle down his cheeks.
He grabbed a new piece of paper and started to write.
“Dear Princess Mary—“
What could Justin right now?
He did not know how to explain to someone,
who finally accepted him,
how could he explain?

Justin did not know how to choose.
He did not know to do.
Justin felt like he would never be happy again.
He could not help but feel alone.
Justin knew Mary was alone,
he knew she needed company.
Justin loved her too,
but could not do anything.

Justin reached for the other note.
His eyes widen,
it was a love letter.
It was from Zayn.
A smile appeared on his face quicker than ever before.
He snatched the letter away from the other side of the desk.

Justin held the letter up high,
trying carefully not to rip the envelop.
He held the piece of paper close to his heart.
A letter from Zayn,
from the man that he loves.
Quickly, he read the letter from Zayn.

“Dear Justin,
a love letter…
Justin, Justin, Justin.
I must love you or die.
I am madly in love with you,
there isn’t anything I can stop about my love for you.
It is too great.
I love you so, my prince.
Justin, Justin, Justin.
If you truly love me, you will say yes.
If you say yes, I will come and steal you away.
I will steal you out of the dark.
Justin, Justin, Justin.
I want nothing more…
Just say yes.”