Dear asshole

1-22-18

Hey it's me. You thought you'd never hear from me again huh?

Well, I'm not in the best mood and I want to punch your face till it becomes that beautiful shade of purple you so much love.

You know why?

Because you're a liar. A big fat liar.
I laughed a little when I heard her say that she "took" your virginity when in reality you gave that to me long ago.

Sure it wasn't the best. But you still did give that to me. You have mine sadly.

I laugh thinking how funny it is that she tries so hard to become me. Thank you though because it gives me some laughs.

I'd do stupid things. Things so stupid I couldn't believe it when she followed along. I accidentally cut my bangs way to short once and there she goes doing the same. I burst out laughing that day.

I told you "You know you're basically dating a second hand version of me right? Not to mention you're dating her because shes the closest you'll get to having me." And what did you say? "Yeah, I know." so calmly.

That made me laugh all night. You did unspeakable things with me anywhere you wanted. Hell once it happened at a library not so long ago.

Jeez that was a strange day. But boy were you having the time of your life.

Then I found out you were with her all along. You cheated on the girl you cheated on me with. Once I told her she pretended like it never happened because she knew you were the best she could do.

My oh my.

What a mistake. Because of you I went to therapy. I drank till I passed out. I smoked till I ran out. I urgently needed more and more. I cut deep into my skin to feel something other than sadness. I'd rather have physical pain than think of you again.

I once tried to hang myself. I was gonna call you to tell you I loved you one last time. But I couldn't.

You didn't deserve my last goodbye.
You didn't deserve me.

I hate you.