My Sweater String

{5}

*Flashback to the week before last week*

             ⚠️ Trigger warning ⚠️

Look at you, pathetic.
I can't believe someone like you would ever think you could be loved by someone like Nova.
I know, I shouldn't even bother. She'd never be interested in someone like me you are right.
You know what you have to do.
I know.
I walked out of my bedroom and into the bathroom.

I pull out a small box of razors, and place it on the countertop.

"One last time" I say to myself, picking up a razor and holding it to my arm.

I began to slowly cut the soft skin as I hear my bedroom door open.

Shocked, I quickly put the razors away but it's too late.

Nova come rushing into the bathroom, her hand over her mouth as she looks at the blood dripping down my elbow.

"Blue..." she says quietly.

Too ashamed in myself, I look away. I feel her lightly grab my arm and rip a paper towel off the roll. She dabs the cloth on my cuts and lightly presses her lips on my wrist,

I look at her, tear stains on my face, makeup long from perfect, but the slightest bit of happiness travels it's way to my heart.

"Stay alive, Blue. Stay alive for me," she whispered as she pulled me into a hug I thought if a pulled back from I would shrink into a the size of a small rock.

YO! So............... it's been a while....... LOOK- IM SORRY!
~N oon espe cial