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Hypocritic Christian-Spoken word

Hypocritic Christian

A moment for a moment

thoughts are leaking everywhere

around you, consuming you

thoughts that are too tiring to hold on to.

This world is filled with lies and temptations

it takes time for you to realize the real lies

and notice that time only moves quickly

when you want it to stop for your desires.

Ima speak from the heart right now.

In this poem you won't find precise punctuation

you won't a rhythmic pulse or a specific intervention

Just a mind filled with thoughts that needed to be written down.

It takes time for you to let go

of what you know you should

and to not bait the risk of love without redemption

of life without light.

I mean, its real eyes that see real lies

its the pure hearts that discern bad intentions

yet the ones that soak themselves in sin

are lusting for the lust of satisfaction.

These words aren't for the sad or the heartbroken

simply for the ones stuck in the almost saved

who find it hard to grasp onto reality

that's actually real words twisted into your own conception.

Because reality stopped being God's words

and started being a feeling

Reality stopped being his guidance

and started being an emotion.

I find myself sick of myself everyday

I realize that it has to be me less and God more

yet I find it's hard when emotions and thoughts

are exciting you a lot more.

Hmm. I'm a hypocritic Christian

travelling without seeing the destination

trying to learn how to look towards the heavens

without faltering in sin and greed for perfection.

Trying to remember the words that my mama told me

saying “Honey, you'll never really know the price for your sins

on that cross.”

It took me a while to realize,

it should have been me.

Hmm. I'm a perfectly imperfect Christian

Jesus is the only rock I have to fall on

can't heap up good deeds but why try

trying to match them to perfection, pfft, good luck to me.

But perfection already came and wrote the laws

right on my heart, my broken sinful heart

perfection already took the time to implant in my a new one

perfection renewed its good spirit in me.

I'm a living, breathing Christian

who is only living, breathing because of Christ

in fact, I am not the one living, breathing

because Jesus lives, breathes in me.

Because on that cross it was accomplished

his death equals my death

at the resurrection was salvation

his life equals my life.

Blood stained, eyes ablaze son of man,

coming soon will I be ready?

This hypocritic Christian,

what will you say when you stand before him?

Do you want to enter the gates,

and for him to say he doesn't know you?

Or do you want to fall in love

with love, for he is love.

You hypocritic Christian,

your good deeds will be rewarded but they won't save you.

Share the love that is God with those around you,

have love that is perfectly perfect.

What kind of love is this?

Its the same love that God had for the world,

the love that sent Jesus to the cross

the love that gave away his breath to redeem you.

So the love you must have?

A love for all your brothers and sisters,

a patient and kind love

a love that does not fear.

So if I've learned anything from myself

its that I myself, is nothing.

But if I have learned anything from his love?

Its that he is the all, the everything.

I've looked for love in this world

from boys that pay me any attention,

I've been jealous of praise singers in his temple

I've criticised someone on their looks.

I've lusted for touch at night,

not realizing those real lies in nightmares

I've feared shadows

that I have cast.

But if I have learned anything from myself?

Its that my flesh is weak.

But if I have learned anything from God?

He is strength, power, supreme.

A moment for a moment

love is entering my heart

all around me, consuming me

forgiveness. Forgiveness that is freedom to hold.

He is my world, filled with forgiveness and love

it took time for me to encounter the intimacy of his intimate embrace

it took real eyes to realize

that he was truly all I needed.