a week later
I hadn't spoken to either Millie or Finn since the incident, despite the millions of voice mails and texts they had left me. But today I decided I needed to talk to Finn, it was driving me mad.
y/n: we need to talk.
finn: yeah
y/n: can you come over?
finn: I'll be there in 10.
I began pacing my room, that's what I do when I'm nervous. Pace, pace, pace. I kept rehearsing every little thing I wanted to say in my head. Until he knocked on the door.
"come in" I beckoned, we came to a halt in the lounge "y/n please-" Finn started but I needed to tell him how I felt, before I felt guilty about saying it "no, let me talk first." I started "you know why I was on set that day?" I asked rhetorically "I was coming to surprise you, because I missed you. When I saw you I actually couldn't believe it, It had never even crossed my mind, I didn't think you were that type of person, I thought that I knew you so well" I could see Finn shifting in his seat avoiding my gaze.
"My life fell apart. I was so hurt, so, so, so fucking hurt and I was angry, at myself for being such an idiot, why did I have to fall in love with him, I found myself constantly asking myself. And you know what the absolute worst thing was, I still wanted you/ Even after the way you humiliated me, the way you tore me to shreds, the way you broke me. I still fucking wanted you" I said shaking my head and pacing around, all of the emotions came flooding back and tears slipped down my cheeks.
"y/n I fucked up so bad, I wish I could go back and take it back but I can't. I can't justify what I did but I do know one thing" he said approaching me and holding my hands "when I saw you upset I realized that I had just lost the one person who made me happy, the one who I loved more than anything else"
a/n: I'm definitely gonna continue the story for a while longer so don't worry but I want to start a new one too so if you have anything you'd like please please please comment and let me know xo Ily all endlessly and tysm for reading my shitty writing
