do mates exist, and if so am i his?

back to school

ok so my spring break consisted of nothing but reading and hanging around. tim only talked to me once shocker. but at this point his mood swings are giving me whip lash.

as i walked down the halls of good old del city high school, i said hi to the people i liked, and glared at the people i wanted dead. i went to drama my first hour, and kay was no where to be found, probably off somewhere yelling at shawn for cheating again. man i wish they would break up for good already.

troy wasnt here either, or britt, or lloyd. so it was just me and my friend charlessa. she was.....different but shes cool and i love her. so we are sitting on stage when tim comes out and walks up to us.

"hey wheres troy?" he says. charlessa just looks at him and says "fucking some chick in the bathroom wanna go join?" then winks at him. i knew she was jokeing cause she was a virgin to, at least as far as i knew. he just laughs and looks at me "hes not here but of corse you should have already known that." i glared at him then he left. thank god.

the rest of the day went by kinda slow. then after lunch i had fith hour with kassi which was algebra 1. so instead of doing the work as usual we sat in the back and talked all hour.

"so whats goin on?" she asked me i knew she ment tim but by this time i really dont care im tired of being led on only to be dissapointed in the end "oh well nothin tims just bein a dick." i said nonchalantly "as usual what about that other guy you dated and you guys were like in love?" oh no my ex, the only reason we even broke up was because he wanted to and to be honest i still love him so much and i dont think ill ever stop loveing him, i just wish i could be with him again like old times. then she snapped her fingers infront of my face "helloooo earth to beth?" "oh uh we still talk." i said stumbling over my words trying not to break "oh well venus thinks yall should keep in close contact you guys' love story is gunna be epic!" she said with a wink "yeah epic how he moved to texas and met some skank and broke up with me." i said bitterly "but you dont know that that accually happend for all you know he could have felt guilty keeping you with him so he let you go thinking that you would have been better off without him" i let her words sink in maybe she was right maybe he really did still love me and im just being an idiot.then i was jolted out of my thoughts by the bell. so kassi changed the subject.

as i walked kassi to class we talked and laughed about random stuff as we held hands. yes we held hands but we both are straight and that will never change. when we got to her class she kissed me on the cheek and said i love you i said it back and walked off. i walked all the way to my class and the rest of the day was just a blurr.

after school i went home and trough my stuff down on my bed. then my cell rang. i didnt reconize the number but i answerd it anyway.

"hello?"

"hey" said the deep voice on the other end. my heart stopped no it cant be he doesnt even know my number, it cant be him hes off in texas bein a dick.then his voice rang out again "hello?" "uh hey?" i said curseing myself for my voice being so shaky "so whats up?" "nothin just got home from school. how did you get my number?" "off of facebook. i didnt know weither or not it was real but i tried it and yep it is." he said triumphantly i sighed "what do you want stephen?" " i just wanted to talk to you." i didnt know what else to say but before i could come up with any thing he said "i still love you and i allways have nothing has changed and i want you back." he said my heart once again stopped and i felt like i was gunna puke "oh yeah did you think of me while you were fucking that other girl" i snapped back where the fuck did that come from "what?! that never happend i was never with any other girl what are you talking about?! i love you bethany and i allways have nothing has changed and i mean it. i shouldnt have let you go and i know that i just i want you back please." he sounded like he was crying i guess he ment it but how are we sussposed to date if hes all the way down there. then he said "theres someone else isnt there?" the only word that went through my mind was tim so i said "yes, well no not really he has a girl friend and im not good enough for him." "then break up with him dump him now and date me instead." "but stephen im not even dateing him im just his fuck buddy while hes not with his girlfriend" "then date me forget him and date me i love you bethany and i want you i wanna marry you all those things i said in the past i ment them and still do i want you bethany please say you want me too" wow this kid is so seiriouse and i think im still in love with him i, i just dont know what im thinking right now. and with out my consent my mouth said "yes!" "really!! oh my god yes thank you bethany i really do love you and theres a surprize comeing for you like a month after school stops just so you know its comeing in the mail!" he sounded so excited it was cute i found myself blushing "and its awesome your gunna love it" "uh what is it?" i said suddently unable to compose my happiness "i cant tell you but its amazing!'" "if its not you in a box on my door step then i dont know whats awesomer than that" i said "its even more awesome than that i swear your gunna love it, now i have to go im on my cousins phone so dont try to call it ill talk to you soon bye. oh and i love youbabe." he was just too cute ' i love you too hun forever and ever." then i hung up the phone wooow that was uh what just happend??

the next dy at school i was bubbleing with happiness i told kay and she was so happy and kassie just smiled and looked at her phone (btw there are two kassadys one is tall and nordic looking who is a werewolf and my suposed best frend and she is spelled kassady or kassie then theres kassi or kassidie shes shorter than me and im only 5'4 and she is venus and for a fact my bestie) then when kassi got there and i told her she took my hands and we jumped around and cheerd, this is why i love her she allways shows the right reaction i want.

then in first hour tim came out and hugged me. oh no if he wants me now too bad i dont gve a fuck.

"hey beth" he said still hugging me britt clears her throut yeah i told her too and kay mock coughs "boyfirend" then tim pulled away hurt in his eye then he put a mask on but i already saw it "do you have a boyfriend" he asked i just stood there i didnt know what to say. if i said yes then he'll be hurt but if i said no id be lieing and betraying stephen and i wasnt about to do that then he put his index finger to my forehead and i knew he was reading my mind damnitt i hated that he could do that and i still couldnt then he ran off i tryed to run after him but he was way to damn fast oh well then he came back out and i felt like i had to explain myself so i went up too him and said "hey can we talk?"

"yeah what is it?"he said sounding distant

"i just want you to know that if we were together i probably wouldnt have gone out with him." he just stood there so i said 'i just dont think ill ever be good enough for you tim" then he looked at me and cuped my face in his hands

"thats not it, thats not it at all. i just cant have that closeness with you thats why i wont date you" yeah cause i belved that sorry ass lie whatever "and i know he makes you happy i can see it in the glow of your skin."then he dropped his hands and shoved them in his pockets "so where does he live anyway?" its like he fuckin knew and he said that to hurt me and it did it hurt just a little

"he lives in texas' i said with narrow eyes yeah talk about no clossness if you really loved me like you say you do your sorry ass would be with me "oh" was all he said then troy came over so i walked out of the auditorium and out of the class just as the bell rang i was mad and i knew kassi could feel it too and she texted me.

"is everything alright???"

"yeah but ill tell you about it in 5th hour oh and im gunna kill tim"

thats all that was said she took the hint and waited til 5th hour where i came clean about everything that happend this morning.

"that is so fucked up hes just saying that shit cause your not his cheat on lauren buddy anymore." she ranted angrily "he is so gunna get it next hour im gunna give him a pice of our mind." she continued and i didnt stop her with every plan she made to get back at him the happier i got til i was back to my own healthy glow of happy gummy bear as kassi called it.the resst of the week flew by and the same drama came withit. there was kay and shawn break up get back together, and kassie not talking to michael but only through text, then there was the supernatural drama like demons and going into the "further" as it was called kinda like a hell on earthkinda place and kassi saveing me every time. then the rest of the months flew by too and school didnt let up at all nothing really happend.

~two weeks til the end of school~

so i go to first hour and kay is fighting with shawn, of corse what else is new. then we go and sit at the back of the auditorium then he calls her im like uhh isnt he at school?! then she says

"i dont care shawn you still cheated!......well i dont even know if i still love you enough to keep working things out.................shawn you have cheated 5 times now! how many chances are you gunna need!!?.........what ever shawn im done." she said in a teary voice her head was down with her hair covering her face i knew she was crying as she hung up her phone i just pulled her in a hug as she cryed "i just cant do it anymore beth" she said barely audiable i whiperd back "i know hun i know and you shouldnt have to go through all that shit" she pulled away drying her eyes "you have to help me stay away from him cause if i talk to him in person ill go back to him like allways" i nodded "of course i will hunbun you dont need him your way to pretty for that scumbag. and the concert is tonight so we can look for some hot emo kids there" i said with a wink and she laughed.

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im gunna end it there so how did you guys like it good bad?? tell me plz you guys are so quite i wish for more readers waaaaa oh well i enjoy wirteing luv yall :3

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