do mates exist, and if so am i his?

Why would you do this

I was scared I didn't know what to do I couldn't move I didn't know who was holding me and takeing me somewhere I didn't know. My instincts told me to kick and scream but my logic told me save your energy for whereever he takes you.

I know this guy has muscles though. I can feel them on my back as he carries me through a door and into a office sized closet he pushes me against the wall facing away from him. Then he growls in my ear. It may be the adrenaline that was going through my veins but I can't believe I didn't recognize him sooner. The tingles shooting up my arms every time he touches somewhere new it makes me shiver and me barely able to stand.

"I told you to go home Bethany you should have listened" he said pressing himself against my back. Feeling his chest against my back his lips on my neck putting gentle kisses along my neck then whispers in my ear "I still can't be with you" then he backs away and let's me off the wall as tears sting my eyes from the rejection once more I just sit down where I was standing and hide my face and start to cry.

It hurts way to much I'm starting to think I'm insane this isn't a normal feeling this feeling scares me I don't know what to do.

I look up at him and he's just standing there watching me like he didn't even care I was crying then he turns toward the door and walks out. Like I'm not here, like he didn't know me, like I ment nothing, and that's how I felt I felt like nothing. I want him to be happy and at first that's all I wanted and now I only want him happy with me. I can't stand to see him with someone else.

After about and hour of crying on the floor I find the bathroom and check how shitty I looked. I was no longer drunk the tears and adrenaline helped that my hair was a mess and I looked like death. I wanted death.

'Don't say that Bethany you know you want to live' I hear vesta say in my head

"Yeah but you know how this feels it makes no sense that I feel so much for someone who is I don't even know what ever he in trying to do with my emotions"

'Bethany he loves you...'

"Has a funny fuckin way of showin it!!!" By tht time more tears were comeing down my face but that's fine I'm ready to leave now.

I walk out the bathroom an back into the office closet thingy and out that door. I followed the music back to the floor where I walked right out the front door. I herd laughter and looked behind me back by the front door was Tim and Troy smoking a cigg. Tim ignores me as usual and Troy gives me this weird look pained but content.... A tear streamed down my cheek and Troy motioned for me to come closer.

"What's wrong beth?"he asked seeming actually caring

"Nothin I'm fine troy" I said as another tear slides down my cheek and I frustratingly wipe it away. Troy just looks at me like he knows more than what I'm telling him. Which he probably does.

"Beth I know you well enough to know that it's not just nothin what happened you can tell me" he put his hands on my shoulder. I just looked at him.

"We'll it's just this guy... I dont know its complicated. Well it is for me it seems like he doesn't even care an I just I think I'm in love with him but i dont know I thinks it's possible for him to be my mate but i dont know I think I'm insane fro how I'm feeling and I belong in a straight jacket!" I broke again I just started crying again an Troy pulled me into his arms and held me there while I cried. Tim was still leaning against the wall casually smoking a cigg.

I can't believe him! Embarrass me like that I just oh my god ugh! I pulled away from Troy and sniffled "thanks for letting me cry on you haha!" I laughed he just looked at me. He looked like he was going to be sick.

" are you okay?" Three seconds later I turned around an through up.

" oh my god! Troy whats wrong?!"he looked up at me looking alittle better he stood up straight

"I tried to take some of your pain away with a spell but my body couldn't handle it so it rejected it by throwing it up..." He trailed off

"WHY WOULD YOU DO THAT?! Troy you know I'm in a lot of pain most of it is my fault I knew what would happen I wouldn't wish this pain on anyone promise me you'll never do that again or even try!"I yell at him

"Yes mom" he said sarcastically

"No say it normal"

"I promise ill never try to do that again that felt horrible" he said that and made a face of pure disgust which made me start to laugh uncontrollably.

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