incredibly alive • lgbtq+

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(slight nsfw warning)

i wake up the next morning to a dozen texts from my parents. in the midst of my panic, i sit up quickly, bashing my head against the top of the car.

"ah, fuck," i groan, holding my head with one hand and typing out a response of reassurance to my parents with the other.

allison moans lightly, then shuffles as she stretches her arms. "morning, carmen." she says, then yawns, wrapping her arms around my torso. "morning, allison." i sigh, putting my phone down and turning to her.

she smiles lazily at me, and i giggle quietly. she moves her hand up to my cheek, her delicate touch shocking me initially.

she turns her body as she pushes mine to lay down, and climbs on top of me.

she leans down and connects our lips together. one of her hands still rests on my cheek while the other gently slides up and down my side.

i put my hand on her chest after a minute, pushing her back slightly. "ali, allison," i whisper breathlessly, closing my eyes and breathing in and out for a few seconds.

i am so used to grey that the brightness allison has brought to me is blinding; it's overwhelming at times.

"what? you okay?" she asks, a small frown of concern appearing on her forehead. she seemed slightly out of breath too.

"yeah, yeah i'm just," i breath out, moving to sit up. she sits up next to me.

"okay. i'm going to sound crazy, but hear me out." i sigh, avoiding eye contact with her, instead staring down at one of my throw blankets we brought.

"i... i'm not often connected, i guess, to uh... well, my life. i'm detached from my emotions and i have a blurred sense of reality. I see and feel grey, most of the time." i try to explain the best i can without seeming completely insane.

"it gets worse when i'm stressed, sometimes i literally can't see in front of me because of how blurred my vision is. but," i breathe deeply in and out.

"yesterday, you connected me back to life for a while, and you, like... because all i've known recently is grey, you pushed that out and flooded me with a bright rainbow for a bit. so much so that it is almost overwhelming sometimes. i sound crazy."

"no you don't." she says, moving to hold both of my hands in hers.

"i want you to feel everything fully," she says.

"i want you to be so incredibly sensitive that just a slight movement feels like a push, that a light tap on your shoulder aches through your entire body.

"i want you to feel vibrantly alive and oversaturated in every emotion you experience.

i want you to live, rather than just exist. let me show you what it feels like to be incredibly alive."

a smile creeps onto my face as i look up to her. "okay." i say, nodding.

she leans in and presses her lips to mine again. the touch aches for a few seconds as she lingers there, before moving back and kissing me again with a slightly open mouth.

she slides her hands up to my shoulders, sending shivers down my spine as she slowly climbs onto my lap, straddling me.

her tongue slides into my mouth and we start slowly making out, her body moving slowly backwards and forwards in time with us.

her hands move down to hold mine, and she places mine on her waist, a bit under one of my pyjama tops that she has on. once mine are there, she puts both of her hands on my chest.

i moan softly into the kiss as her hands slip down to my boobs. she gently squeezes them and runs her thumb over my nipple through the fabric of my shirt.

i push my hands up more, pushing her shirt up as she continues to play.

after a minute or so she drops her hands to the bottom of my shirt and begins lifting it up as we continue to make out.

we pull apart as she pulls the shirt over my boobs. i breathe in and out heavily a few times as she pulls my shirt completely off, dropping it to the side of us.

she moves in and licks from the middle of my boobs all the way along my neck. i whimper quietly as she does, biting my lip.

"mm," she chuckles, running her thumb over my now bare nipple, making me squirm slightly. I close my eyes and lean my head back as her tongue circles around my other nipple, her thumb still grazing over the first one.

i moan quietly and repeatedly as she gently sucks on my nipple, playing with the other. my hands push further up her shirt, so far that it moves above her boobs, remaining draped across her shoulders.

she moves back and pulls the shirt off of herself. as she does, her body stretches out completely with her arms up, and i quickly move forwards and lick over her nipple. she moans, quickly throwing her shirt to the side as she pushes her body against me. i gently suck and lick over it as she whimpers, putting her hand on my head.

"mmh, yeah, play with the other one too," she whines quietly and i move my hand quickly to run my fingertips over her other nipple. i grab it with my thumb and forefinger, gently squeezing and massaging it as she starts to moan a bit louder.

she moves her hands down to my underwear, but before she can do anything we hear three loud bangs on the car.

"oh fuck, fuck," she whispers, pulling her shirt on quickly. i do the same and look at her for a second before opening the door.

"hi?" i say awkwardly. "hi there. your car has been parked on my property for nearly 10 hours, so i'm gonna have to ask you to leave."

"oh god, gosh, i'm so sorry, we didn't realise this was someone's private property." i explain, my vision immediately becoming blurry as both allison and i step out and get into the front seats.

"thank you for letting us stay overnight,  sir." allison says, starting up the engine. he nods politely at her.

"and girls, car windows are see-through, remember that." he smirks as my whole body is struck by sheer shock and embarrassment.

allison gulps and reverses back onto the main road.

"oh fuck, that was so awful," i breathe out. "it was funny! don't you feel, like, the adrenaline?" she asks, grinning as she drives us into the next town.

"actually, i do, yeah," i smile, biting my lip as i concentrate on the feeling.

we continue driving silently for a few minutes, until she breathes in to speak.

"and um, you were so hot back there, by the way."

"shut up." i giggle quietly, running my fingers through my hair. "so anyway, what's next?" i ask, looking around as the buildings start to gradually get taller and closer together as we ride further into the city.

"not sure. we did a riverdale-esque diner last night, so... friends-eqsue cafe?" allison suggests, glancing at me for a few moments beofre returning her gaze back onto the road.

"yeah, sounds fun." i smile, crossing my legs and looking at her.

my eyes watched as the grey turned into a bright yellow colour.