brighter days - fandomfluid

beautifully strange

D.H  

 

today is summer in the city. 

phil and i usually don't go to these as we prefer to stalk people on twitter rather than talk to them in person. but then i found out dodie would be going, i hadn't been able to stop thinking of her for the past two god damn months. so i convinced phil into it, with some help from our supporters.

-3 weeks ago- 

@ danielhowell 

hey would you guys want us to come to sitc this year?

from that point on phil didn't have a choice anymore.

gotta love the phans. :) 

"hey dan you ready, the cab will be here soon?" i looked up from my phone which i had previously been scrolling through twitter mindlessly on until phil entered the lounge.

after looking him over to make sure he wasn't dressed funny, i said a simple yes and we headed out. 

hed had on his red ladybug shirt, black jeans, and some white vans. he was also wearing his glasses, he must have slept with his contacts in. he looked nice. 

on the cab ride to the venue, i was shaking with excitement, i felt like young dan going to meet phil so many years ago.

once we arrived we had a meet and greet straight away. i love our phans so much, they are supportive, and they make me feel more comfortable with the fact that i don't leave the phlat often.

-3 hours later- 

meeting everyone was great, it's so humbling. we took many pictures in flower crowns, holding hands. two American girls even proposed to us with ring pops. again, gotta love the phans.

now we had a two-hour lunch. phil and i headed to a room behind the venue that was for creators only. when we entered we were greeted by multiple 'hi's' and 'missed you guys.'

we said hi to everyone, i saw evan edinger, joey graceffa, louise, jim and tanya, zoella and alfie. and some other great people. thank god no paul brothers though, but also no dodie. 

after i spoke to everyone i told phil i was going to the bathroom before we and a few people went out for lunch. 

as i headed through the lobby of the venue towards the bathroom i saw a white piano in the center of the room, how beautifully strange.

after using the toilet i washed my hands and began to exit. just as i pushed past the door i saw a girl in s white and yellow stipped dress walking out of the toilet. i caught a slight glimpse of her face, and i knew from that moment it was dodie.

"dodie!" 

she stopped and turned towards me and gave me a small wave. 

i started towards her and as i grew closer i realized small smudges under her eyes, her beautiful cheeks were red, and she had puffy eyes. 

she had been crying.  

'hi da-," i cut her off as i hugged her out of nowhere. but what is even weirder than me quickly engulfing her in a hug is that. after she had tensed for a minute she melted into my arms and hugged me back.

we had been standing in this lobby for a minute, just hugging.

that is until i heard a sniffle. 

i pulled her away from me with my hands resting on her shoulders and gazed at her face. she had tears rolling down her face. she brought her hands up and wiped them away. 

"i wish we would stop meeting in such crappy situations." 

with that, i started laughing and removed my hands from her shoulders. i was laughing so much that tears brimmed my eyes. ounce i was done i looked to see her and a few people sitting in the lobby looking at me.

"its funny because we saw each other while exiting the restrooms."

and with that, she laughed too. 

i watched her laugh and felt my stomach twist. 

as her laughter died down i opened my mouth to ask whats wrong but decided not to as i didn't want her to feel uncomfortable. 

"hey dodie, can i play you something?" I pointed towards the piano. after she nodded i grabbed her hand and pulled her towards the piano.

and the strangest thing was, she didn't pull away.

as we sat down in front of the piano, both sitting on the bench. i rested my hands on the keys. 

i knew exactly what song to play. 

as the notes started to fill the lobby, i opened my mouth and started to sing, which i don't do often as i'm not the most amazing singer, yet she didn't seem to mind.

These are the eyes and the lies of the taken
These are their hearts but their hearts don't beat like ours
They burn 'cause they are all afraid
For every one of us, there's an army of them
But you'll never fight alone
'Cause I wanted you to knowThat the world is ugly
But you're beautiful to me
Well are you thinking of me now (now)These are the nights and the lights that we fade in
These are the words but the words aren't coming out
They burn 'cause they are hard to say
For every failing sun, there's a morning after
Though I'm empty when you go
I just wanted you to knowThat the world is ugly
But you're beautiful to me
Are you thinking of me
Like I'm thinking of you
I would say I'm sorry, though
Though I really need to go
I just wanted you to knowI wanted you to know
I wanted you to know
I'm thinking of you every night, every dayThese are the eyes and the lies of the taken
These are their hearts but their hearts don't beat like ours
They burn 'cause they are all afraid
When mine beats twice as hard'Cause the world is ugly
But you're beautiful to me
Are you thinking of me
Like I'm thinking of you
I would say I'm sorry, though
Though I really need to go
I just wanted you to know
That the world is ugly (I just wanted you to know)
But you're beautiful to me (I just wanted you to know)
Are you thinking of meStop your crying, helpless feeling
Dry your eyes and start believing
There's one thing they'll never take from you(And then your face, will be lost forever, we'll never be the same
Like ghosts in the snow
Like ghosts in the sun)

after i finished playing the last few notes i had looked over at dodie who's head was now resting on my shoulder. and just as i opened my mouth to speak i heard a little snore come from dodie.

a soft smile stretched on my face as i looked at her again. she was what i could only describe as.

beautifully strange.

D.O

i wasn't sleeping. :)

---------

i hope you enjoyed this long ass thing. 

I've realized this is quite therapeutic for me to write so thanks if you read this lol.