Devil's Boarding school

Chp.13 What's in a Love letter?

After Flying class was finally over, and Eagle was sure that we had all flown exactly in unison to every kind of flight pattern he could throw at us, we flew back to our dorms to shower. I had grabbed the keys from Ecanus when he wasn't looking, so me and Cas could run in and lock him out. but Ecanus was fast enough to reach the door before we closed it, and push it open with both of us trying to close it. "You guys just can't beat me." Ecanus said mockingly, 

"Yeah well, your supposed to be stronger than us anyways.." I said dismissively, "Being inehiritant and all.. anyways, Cas you want the first shower?" 

"Yeah i think so," he said, following my dismissive attitude, 

"Hey!" shouted Ecanus, "Your both just no fun." he prodded, clearly wanting to show off that he'd beaten us.

Cas and I just ignored him and walked into our room, smirking because we knew how to work Ecanus up. Castiel grabbed a t-shirt and jeans then went into the shower, when I heard the door close I went over to his desk to see what he was so intent on writing. There was a small pile of maybe seven sheets and an ever growing pile of a million crumpled papers in the bin, I sighed remembering all that time he spent staying up, focused on his work. I picked up the pile on the desk, and read through the small poems. The first few were lonely, then the fourth was more confused, and the last three I could swear were about love from afar. i read one of the first ones,

Circles in the sky, white ivory trinkets 

Caresses soft...touching 

The essence of the soul 

Anticipating, hoping, whispers of soft memories 

Left unspoken

Leaning Grasses, purple fields, rustling winds... 

An embodiment of the spirit

Sing to the heart, worlds apart, white foam, 

Blue horizons 

Untamed Sunsets 

All hold that song

Careless words, once, twice, tattered souls, 

Chipped walls and Faded yellow roses 

They somehow mark the years of silence

Glass stained tears, 

Encumber within me 

Shattered dreams 

Timeless love lost 

To the misery of locked hearts

I fall...with stains upon my soul 

Prevailing thoughts left untold 

Golden gates yearning soft goodbyes, among the 

darkness 

I stand 

Alone

It was clearly about being sad and alone, like the poem described, I couldn't help but feel bad for Castiel, I had to wonder why he felt so lonely. i put the poem back in place and looked at the fifth one,

To find the perfect word 

One that would but express 

Her beauty is yet unheard 

So profound; preposterous to condense

A frame so slight 

Possessed pulchritude 

A smile of light 

Sweet sardonic attitude

An innocuous purity 

Beyond eyes of twilight 

Golden chestnut hair revelry 

A voice poetic, hardly trite

She moves with such grace 

Each action sublime 

An alluring lyric to embrace 

A touch blissfully divine

By the end I was blushing, for him to write like this, I wondered who the lucky girl could be. I put the papers back down, but I was still curious, and listening to the shower still going, I picked up the middle poem,

What is this feeling I have? 

I seem to love you

I can't be without you 

Or maybe just without anyone 

I think about you all the time 

But why do I have this feeling?

I long for your voice 

And I would die to hear your laugh 

But is this love 

Or merely lust?

it was by far the shortest, and most hastily written, I wondered when it was written but there was no date, so I couldn't place when he'd thought this. Oddly I felt a little jealous of the girl he'd seen. I put the papers back, then while rearranging them, I saw a crumpled piece under the desk. i reached for it to see a longer poem,

My love has made me selfish. I cannot exist without you - I am forgetful of every thing but seeing you again - my Life seems to stop there - I see no further. You have absorb'd me. I have a sensation at the present moment as though I was dissolving - I should be exquisitely miserable without the hope of soon seeing you. I should be afraid to separate myself far from you. My sweet Ava, --

my hands flinched, at the mention of my name, suddenly the bathroom door opened. I hid the paper behind my back, crumpling it in my hands. Castiel came out drying his hair, then he paused as he saw me at his desk looking guilty, "Whats wrong?" he said, 

"N-nothing.." I stuttered, forcing a small smile, "I-I'll take my shower now.." I blushed, then scuttled past him to grab my clothes and run into the shower. 

I pulled out the hidden paper then slid down with my back against the door,

My sweet Ava, will your heart never change? My love, will it? I have no limit now to my love - You note came in just here - I cannot be happier away from you - 'Tis richer than an Argosy of Pearles. Do not threat me even in jest. I have been astonished that Men could die Martyrs for religion - I have shudder'd at it - I shudder no more - I could be martyr'd for my Religion - Love is my religion - I could die for that - I could die for you. My Creed is Love and you are its only tenet - You have ravish'd me away by a Power I cannot resist: and yet I could resist till I saw you; and even since I have seen you I have endeavoured often "to reason against the reasons of my Love." I can do that no more - the pain would be too great - My Love is selfish - I cannot breathe without you.

A small tear escaped my eye, why was he in love with me? After so little time..I thought back to all the fun times we'd had over the week, how we were always together and happy. Suddenly there was a knock at the door, "hey Ava are you ok?"  

I started at the sound of his voice, "I'm f-fine!" I stuttered, hurrying to undress and jump in the shower.