do you know what the ocean is?
I bet you don't, I've swam in it before.
I jumped and stayed afloat, no lifeboat, no reassurance of survival. only a beating heart, a set of lungs, and the decayed parts of my brain that make me think of you each and every time. I laid there flat for a couple hours, those hours feeling like days. after removing myself from temptation, mistakes, fear, the lies I've told, the people that hurt me, the responsibilities I mistook for happiness, and my regrets were left behind to sink to the depths of what the deep blue tinted water had to offer. I didn't leave however, my heart because it isn't just the source of life, I needed it because no matter how broken it may be, no matter how decomposed it becomes , no matter how small it gets, no matter how fragile... It holds you inside. It holds treasure, it holds the single most important thing to ever exist. I was drowning slowly, miles away from shore. waves swallowed me whole, they rushed over my body but I didn't move, I didn't struggle, I didn't hold my breath. you kept me afloat, you kept me from being dragged down. I swallowed salted water that burned my throat which later on rushed down my nose but I didn't cry, I wasn't scared. I looked down and great white sharks circled my lifeless body but I didn't swim away nor did I attempt to. I was frozen cold but I didn't shiver, not one inch of my body moved. I was broken but I found the puzzle pieces all because you believed in me, all because you said those three words that reminded me of what life really meant, all because I was silly enough to fall for you.
thank you for reading, this is my writing so please do not attempt to steal. much love. <3
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POETRY BOOK
Poetrythis book of poetry will be written in throughout my darkest nights. In this book, you'll discover poems of the dreams in which I'm dying are the best I've ever had.
