Afraid Of The Dark- Richie Tozier (IT)

I'm So, So Sorry

Recap:
I struggle against the clowns arms, hopelessly trying to break loose. I give up and look up as I look at Richie and only Richie.

I was going to die.

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"No, don't!" Beverley yells out as the clown holds onto us. I look at bill who is as helpless as me am I tightly close my eyes before looking to Richie again.

"Let them go" Beverley yells to the clown.

It only shakes his head, causing a single tear to leave my eye as I grip onto its arm.

"No" it says to her.

"I'll take them, I'll take alll of you. I'll feast on your flesh as I feed on your fear" It says while running a hands over my face, causing a few tears to run down my face.

"Orrrrr," it begins as it shakes, "you just leave us be. I'll take these two, only them. And I will have my longgg rest. And you will all live to grow and thrive and lead happpyyy lives until old age brings you back to the weeds." It proposes to them. They should leave. Forget about me. I took a part in bringing us here, this was my fault.

"Leave..." bill tells them, his voice breaking.

"We are the ones that drug y'all into this whole mess. We pushed you all" I say, crying as well as I stare at Richie.

"S-s-sorry" The clown laughs, making fun of bill.

"Go!" Bill yells to them as the clown laughs.

"Guys, we can't" Bev says to the group as Richie stands up.

"I'm sorry" Bill says to the group as I close my eyes tightly, crying slightly. I let them down. We didn't kill this clown, and now it's going to take bill's life as well. Bill had a family, he didn't deserve to die.

I'm sorry that I let the group down. I couldn't tell Richie how I felt. I didn't appreciate Stan, Eddie, Mike, Ben, Bill, and Bev as much as I should have  for being a family to me because I didn't have a good one. There is so many things I still have left to do, but I've ruined it all. For me and bill. And I'm sorry for it all.

"I'm so, so sorry" I tell as my voice breaks mid sentence. My mother wouldn't care anyways. Richie will find a new friends and forget me, along with the other losers. But they can't lose bill.

"I told you bill. I fucking told you" Richie says as he stands up.
"I don't want to die." He carries on. I don't blame Richie, he didn't want to die. If I had to die so he can live, then I'm more than willing.

I loved Richie. I may not have been able to show him, but I did. I never experienced love much, but I knew that it was what I felt for him.

"It's your fault. You punched me in the face, you made me walk through shitty water, you brought me to a fucking crackhead house. And.." Richie says, counting everything off on his fingers as he walks to the trash pile.

"And zoey made me fall in love with her. So now, I'm going to have to kill this fucking clown" Richie says as he grabs a bat from the pile. A smile comes onto my face but is broken when the clown throws us to the side. Richie loves me, I think to myself as I push off the ground.

"Welcome to the losers club asshole!" Richie yells as he hits the clown with the bat.

Mike runs forwards and attempts to hit the clown. Burned hands come out of the clowns mouth and grab onto the pol, pulling mike towards the clown.

"Mike!" I yell as I look for a weapon. I grab a metal pole laying on the ground and Stan grabs a large piece of pipe. Stan slings it forwards and hits the hands, causing them to retract. I hit the clown in the back as hard as possible as it looks at Stan. It's face morphs into and ladies.

It runs at stand who close his eyes and blindly swings, coming in contact with the Clowns face.

Mike runs forwards and hits the clown again. He falls onto the ground as It's hands morph into claws and try to stab mike. He rolls out of the way just in time for each strike to barely miss him.

Ben runs forwards, jabbing a metal spike through the clowns abdomin. The clown turns to ben as it's face morphed into a mummy. The paper wrapped around it head begins to wrap around ben.

"Ben!" I yell as Bill grabs a chain. He slings it forwards, cutting the paper material and saving Ben.

Bill continues to hit the clown with the chain and we all join in, hitting the clown in any way possible.

Bill hits It once more in the face towards Eddie. It begins to gag and we all stop. It looks to Eddie and throws up a black substance all over Eddie.

"I'm gonna Kill you!" Eddie screeches, barely understandable as he kicks the clown in the face. It flips backwards and morphs into Bev's dad.

"Hey bevvie, are you still my little..." It is cut off by Bev swinging at it as hard as she could.

It, was then turned to me. It morphed into my mother.

"Your father left because of you. You drive men and boys away, no one could ever love or want you, you-" She begins to say before I cut her off.

"Shut up!" I yell as I drive the spike into It's face. I let go of the spike shocked and walk backwards slightly beside Richie.

The clown then morphs back and spits out the pole.

"Oh shit" I say. It falls onto its back and crawls away as we follow. It sits against a wel, shaking and making weird gasping noises. It all made sense now. It couldn't beat us together, only when we feared it.

"That's why you didn't kill Beverley..." I say to it as I realized that because she wasn't afraid, she lived.

"S-s-she wasn't afraid. And we aren't either. Not anymore. Now you're the one who's afraid. Because you're gonna starve." Bill continues, calmly. The clown was shaking and somewhat crying in front of us as it gags. It flips backwards into the well as it holds itself up.

"He thrusts his firsts against the post and still imagist he see the ghost" the clown says as Stan hands bill the pipe to finish It off.

"He thrusts his fist against the p-p-po-p-post" it says in fear. Bill pulls the pipe back and the clown hides back into the well.

It's head begins to break apart into tiny pieces and float into the air. I move over into Richies arms and he holds me close to him.

"Fear..." is the last thing the clown says before falling into the well. We all walk forwards and look into the well.

"I know what I'm doing for my summer experience essay...." Richie tells the group.

"Too soon, Rich" I tell him, trying to lighten the moment a little. I lean my head on his shoulder as he wraps his arm around my waist. I lean into him, enjoying his warmth in this shitty sewer. Bill looks over to Bev and pulls her into a hug.

"Guys. Guys." Eddie says, getting our attention as he looks up. We all look up and see that the kids are floating down.

"They're floating down..." I say as a we all stare upwards.

Bill walks forwards to the trash pile as we all stare up. He leans down and grabs a yellow raincoat. I shake Richie's arm and he looks to bill, walking over. Inside the coat it written 'Georgie Denbrough' in black sharpie.

Bill lets out a small sob as he hugs the coat to him. Richie brings him into a hug and all the losers join in. We knew how hard this was for Bill and we were all here for him. We all sat there together and let Bill cry over his brother, just as he would for any of us.

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We eventually make our way out of the sewer and decide to all meet by the river tomorrow. We each go home,except for me. I spent the night at Richie's and enjoyed every second we spent together.